August 31, 2012

Good morning, Dear Readers!  I hope this post finds everyone well today..

If any of you are interested in astronomy like I am, you may find this very interesting…tonight is the second full moon of August.  Many people call it a “blue moon.”  The moon won’t show a blue glow tonight, unfortunately, but the second full moon of a month is pretty cool, nonetheless!  I love a full or new moon- the moon showing her full beauty is a lovely sight to behold.

Lately, as some of you know, I’ve been going through a hard time.  Feeling overwhelmed easily, flashbacks of abuse in my life, depression.. it’s been a rough time to say the least.  Today I read something that struck a chord in me, & I thought I’d share it with you….

“There comes a time in your life when you have to either accept what you’re doing & just exist, or stop talking about what you used to be & do something completely different.”

I think it struck such a chord with me, because for one thing, I’m tired of living in the past with these stupid flashbacks & depression, but also because I know this isn’t what God wants for me.  God has been placing something in my heart lately.  When I was 19, I moved out of my parents’ home.  I can’t say I got wild, but compared to the extreme repression I had experienced with my mother, I certainly felt wild & free.  I was able to go where I wanted, see who I wanted, do what I wanted.  Even though it was a challenging time (I was never taught real life skills I would need), it was also about the best time of my life.  I was able to experience that freedom & be the person I was meant to be.  While, unfortunately, I wasn’t a Christian, I still was basically the person God wanted me to be- someone who was free to feel, do, think as she wanted.  Someone who could enjoy even the little things in life with passion.  Over the years, I have lost that person, & God wants me to get her back.  Seeing that quote this morning has inspired me to do my best to do exactly as it says- stop living the way I have been (thinking too much about the bad things) & asking God to give me the courage to do something different, & become the person I once was.

The reason I’m telling this story?  My prayer is that you too, Dear Reader, will do the same.  Life is full of so many bad things.  You can’t help but to notice them.  But, you can choose to focus on God, & His will for your life.  Live as He wants you to- notice & appreciate the everyday miracles that surround you, such as flowers in bloom, the fact you have a home of your own instead of living on the street as so many are doing these days, your beautiful children (human or furry!) & the spouse you love.  If you are fortunate enough to still have living grandparents or parents, spend time with them, listening to their stories of your family- get to know where you came from, your heritage, & be proud of it.  Love passionately- not only in the sexual realm with your spouse, but love your friends & family deeply, showing them just how much they mean to you.  I am going to do my best to do the same.

God bless you, Dear Reader!  I send you much love..  ❤

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