The last week or so have been over the top negative & stressful to me. As a result, I’ve had many panic attacks, haven’t slept much lately, had nightmares, etc etc..
Today, while my husband is out, I decided to relax & have some “me” time. I sent prayer requests to a few Christian websites. I then cranked up a folder of music on my mp3 player that I have titled “Songs That Make Me Happy.” Yes, I listen to the same tunes over & over, but well, they make me happy! I also took a nice, warm, relaxing shower followed by exfoliating my skin & applying a yummy lavender scented lotion. The entire time, I prayed.
No, it wasn’t an expensive or elaborate afternoon, but it made me feel better. MUCH better.
Partly why it made me feel better is the music. I am not a fan of Christian or gospel music. I have nothing against it- just for some odd reason, it seldom “speaks” to me. The cool part of that? God still speaks to me through my taste in music. Today, one of the songs I listened to was “That’s How They Do It In Dixie” by Hank Williams, Jr. Listening to the song reminded me how I have lost myself & need to get back in touch with that Southern gal that lives inside me. She is my true self- kinda rebellious, but a lady who while feminine will fight for what is right. Another song was “455 Rocket”- about a gal with an Oldsmobile with a 455 cubic inch engine in it. I happen to have one of those! She raced hers, & I raced mine many times too (much to the dismay of the other guy! lol). It felt good remembering that. I also am listening to several songs from the 80’s (when I was a teen) that remind me of when I was 19 in 1990 & had just moved out on my own for the first time. It was the one time in my life I was actually able to be who I truly am- living my life on my own terms, not others’ terms.
I’ve been “scolded” many times for not listening to more Christian music, but truth be told, I’m fine NOT listening to it. God still speaks to me. We’re still close. Honestly.. if He was upset by this, I think He would have let me know it by now. I just want those of you reading this now to know that God loves you & will relate to you however works. He isn’t critical of that! He invented all music (not just gospel & Christian songs), movies, books.. He will meet you where you are & loves you so much!