Good morning, Dear Readers!
As I mentioned in my last post, last Friday, my mother called, & as she so often does, attempted to push my buttons. A part of me wanted to just jump through the phone & smack her. I mean really- trying to shame me by acting like I’m the only person in the entire world who likes Stephen King’s writing just because she doesn’t like scary stories? Sheesh.. how stupid! Anyway, I refused to show her I was angry, because that only pleases her & makes her meaner. Instead I either pretend I didn’t notice the snide comments, or respond calmly albeit a bit sarcastically. With the Stephen King comments, for example, She ended her tirade with “I don’t know where you get your taste in books! I don’t like anything scary!” (she likes fluffy, light stories only) In a somewhat cheerful tone, I simply said, “You obviously don’t know any of us Baileys then. There is not one Bailey I know of who doesn’t like scary stories. Stephen King, Dean Koontz, Clive Barker- you know, the GOOD authors.” My mother responded by changing the subject. HA! She wasn’t amused that I didn’t respond in anger & I made a valid point.
My point of telling you this is that there is a very big difference in responding & reacting, & if you have a narcissist in your life, then you need to learn the difference!
What I did in the above story is respond. I know this is a topic that comes up often (it’s an attempt to shame me for being different than her), so I have learned to prepare my responses ahead of time. I maintain an air of calmness, even though inside I may not feel so calm, & speak my peace.
Reacting is much different. Reacting is what you do when you don’t think or prepare ahead of timem. When someone pushes your buttons, you react by yelling at them. This is what narcissists want you to do- they feed off of the fact that they have so much control/power over you, they can make you so angry or even lose control. If they can make you look crazy by yelling at them while they stay calm, all the better for them. They get that power, plus they make you doubt your own sanity.
See the difference??
If you too have a narcissist in your life, then you need to master the art of responding & lose your reaction for your own mental health. In order to do this, you need to know your narcissist. What topics does she frequently bring up to hurt you with? Does she use the same method with several topics? How does she expect you to react to her antics- with anger? Tears?
Once you know what to expect, that is half the battle! From there, you can prepare various ways to respond. I do this by asking God for help. Help me to stay calm in her presence & help me to say creative things to let her know her game isn’t working- I’m not ashamed of myself for being different or feeling guilty because I don’t agree with her or whatever her evil goal is. It’s worked wonderfully too! Usually things just happen & I haven’t prepared myself other than to pray before seeing her. My recent response to my mother’s nasty comments because I like Stephen King’s work was one of those incidents. A few days prior, as I wrote about in this blog entry the other day, I learned that saying, “well ain’t that nice” was also effective, & it was also a spontaneous event.
Learning to respond rather than react has been very beneficial for me. It has eliminated many topics that my mother used to use to try to hurt or invalidate me with. It can do the same for you! I doubt there is ever a way to completely eliminate all of a narcissist’s weapons of verbal destruction, but this one will eliminate plenty of them! I encourage you to give it a try. What do you have to lose??