Get Your Passion Back

I realized many years ago, I didn’t know myself at all.  I’d been too busy trying to please others to get to know the person God made me to be.  So, I finally asked God who was I, & He shared some interesting things with me.

One of those things was that I’m a very passionate person in many ways.  That surprised me, because I act so subdued.  I used to be a little less restrained when I was younger, but the older I get, the less comfortable I am sharing with others or even letting loose & singing & dancing in my seat along with the radio as I drive like I once did.  I chalked that up to age & maturity, but I think there is way more to it.

No matter your experiences in life, good or bad, they affect you.  Unfortunately, some of us have experienced many bad things, & have been drastically affected by them.  Bad experiences can make you bitter, angry or withdrawn.  Mine have made me withdrawn.  My husband is the same way, & I think that somehow this made us do this even more.  We each saw the other one withdrawing, & did the same.  After all, if the other person doesn’t want to “be bothered” with my company, why should I try?  (Since we were both raised by narcissistic parents, we tend to take things personally that aren’t necessarily personal.  Old habits truly die hard, even when you know better.)

Although I’ve known this is a problem for a while, in all honesty, I’ve postponed dealing with it.  Today, a couple of songs came on that helped me remember that this is something I need to focus on.  The songs are:

Even if you aren’t a country music fan, I urge you to listen to them.  They describe exactly how I feel, & I’m sure many others as well.  Maybe even you.  Listening to these songs made me want my passion back.   I realize how robbed I feel, & it’s now really bothering me.

God showed me some ways to get my passion back quite some time ago & I am going to try to implement these steps in my life as often as possible.  I’m hoping what He showed me will help you as well.

I asked God to tell me who I really am.  Who did He make me to be?  Knowing how much I love animals, God told me to study the personality of a wolf, because that is what I’m truly like.  What I found was eye opening.  It described exactly the kind of person I’ve always admired.  Ask Him who you are- you may be very surprised as I was.

If God shows you, as He did me, that your personality is much like an animal, surround yourself with little reminders of that animal.  I have a lot of pictures of wolves in all moods on my tablet.  I have a wolf theme on my laptop.  I admire wolves on TV or in pictures or wherever I see them, letting the image remind me that this is the person God made me to be- like the elegant, strong, loyal, loving, wise wolf.

Dump your inhibitions!  Seriously, what good are they doing by making you squelch the person you are meant to be?  Ask God to help you do so.  When He puts it in your heart to step outside of your comfort zone, then do it.  It will help to build your self-confidence & also to shed inhibitions.

Pay attention to what you want to do.  Whether it is an interest, your career or a hobby, pay attention.  You will discover what lights a fire in you, & participating in it will feel simply amazing!

Practice self acceptance.  God made you the way you are for a reason.  Why reject it?  That is like telling God He doesn’t know what He’s doing, or he messed up for making you this way.  Ask Him to help you accept yourself & even love yourself for the person He made you to be.

I plan to listen to the above mentioned songs more & more often since music can be so inspiring.  I also feel inspired by other songs in other genres, so I’ll be listening to them more often too.  What inspires you to get your passion back?  Listen to the songs frequently or look at that painting or read that book.  Whatever it is, isn’t important so long as it inspires you.


Filed under Christian Topics and Prayers, Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Mental Health

12 responses to “Get Your Passion Back

  1. ibikenyc

    Just now listened to both of these while reading the lyrics in another tab.

    I look forward to one day again feeling like I wanna feel.


    • You will get there. ❤

      I'm still working on it myself. Seems to be a battle for those of us who survived narcissistic abuse, but it's worth the fight.

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      • ibikenyc

        Thank you for the encouragement ❤

        I'm writing in my journal now, as I do pretty much every morning. Took a little break to get a second cuppa and check my email. One of the things I'm talking about in there is how I am starting to remember things I liked about myself and how they are, albeit slowly, starting to come back to the fore.

        Hope you enjoy your weekend and that y'all are not stuck in this (allegedly) week-long "tropical" weather system!


        • You’re welcome!

          Good for you! It’s so important to remember those things.

          Thanks! I hope you enjoy your weekend too! Today is supposed to be a bit cooler here, thank God. The heat & humidity’s been about killing me Ick How is it in your neck of the woods?

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          • ibikenyc

            Also quite hot and humid. I know you dislike the summer; hope you’re not too uncomfortable 😦

            We live about three blocks from the beach, which sometimes helps a little, but not in weather like this! I myself would much rather burn than freeze (those balmy ocean breezes turn into icy gales come winter!), but even for me this has been a bit much.

            VERY grateful I don’t have to be on the subway!


            • Well I thought it was going to be cooler today.. I was wrong. We were out running errands for several hours & I am done. Heat sensitivities just suck.

              That sounds nice living near the beach! Close but not so close you have people in your personal space all summer.

              Oh my.. I’d imagine the subway is like a rolling oven in this weather!

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              • ibikenyc

                “A rolling oven;” LOLOLOLOL! Perfect!

                I remember when they weren’t air conditioned.


              • ibikenyc

                PS: I sure do hear you about the heat sensitivity, as I’m going through menopause and have the WORST hot flashes. At least I can (usually) sit and laugh about them, even drenched in sweat (sorry if that’s gross)!


                • Oh yea, I sympathize with the hot flashes. Foul & evil things! Have you ever tried black cohash? I found it super helpful!

                  I also have heat sensitiivies from having heat exhaustion in 2012 & as a part of multi sensory sensitivity, one of the “bonuses” from the carbon monoxide poisoning. And, I have a husband with the body temperature of a 87 year old woman. *sigh* I have considered beating him for turning back the ac many, many times.. lol

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                  • ibikenyc

                    Never heard about black cohash for this. Does it come in pill form, like vitamins, or do you make tea?

                    That CO poisoning sounds like a nightmare. I hadn’t understood how recently that happened to you. My God; you could have been killed.

                    Yeah, that old thing about men, women, and air conditioning!


                    • I’ve heard some make black cohash tea but I’ve never tried it. I get the pills at Walmart cheap. I’ve found even if I don’t have hot flashes it helps my body temperature regulate better. It’s good stuff & only takes one pill a day! I take it at bedtime (when I remember) because it does wear off in time. At least taking it at night eliminates the night sweats.

                      It really was a nightmare & one that doesn’t end. It amazes me that some folks walk away with no trouble & others end up with all kinds of weird crap. A good friend of mine got carbon monoxide poisoning when she was pregnant with her son. Both are totally fine! I however am a mess. lol Yea, I could’ve been killed.. partly why I never told my parents. They wouldn’t have cared or would’ve turned it into all about them & that wasn’t something I could face while trying to recover & figure out this new, post cmp life.

                      I always thought women were the cold ones, men hot. Not in this house.. lol

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