As victims of narcissistic abuse, we are raised never to make waves. That includes never upsetting the narcissistic parent. It doesn’t matter what that narcissist does to you, you are NOT allowed to confront her about her abusive behavior. If you do, you’re a terrible & unreasonable person. At least according to the narcissist.
Unfortunately, this carries over into other abusive relationships & situations, including rape.
It seems to me it’s fairly common for adult children of narcissists to make excuses for being raped, especially if it’s by a boyfriend or husband. “Well, he was drunk.” “I wasn’t in the mood, but he was, so it’s not a big deal.” “It’s not like he held a gun to my head. He’s my husband & I owe it to him.” We also seldom call these abusers out on their awful behavior.
Maybe we behave this way simply from habit. Or, maybe we behave this way because we don’t believe we deserve to be treated better. Whatever the case, it is very wrong & needs to change.
Rape is a terrible thing, but possibly it’s even worse when done by an intimate partner. Our husbands are people we know & love, share secrets & dreams with, possibly even share children with. When that special person rapes you, it destroys your trust in him. That affects every area of your marriage. It can destroy the love you once felt for your husband. It also can leave you depressed, anxious, with eating or sleep problems.
Also, marital rape doesn’t always mean your husband held a gun to your head & forced you to have sex. He may not even use force at all. Coercion & guilt tactics designed to make you give in are extremely common, yet are seldom considered weapons used in marital rape. Personally, I believe them to be very effective ones weapons, especially for those of us who survived narcissistic abuse & are prone to feeling guilty easily. I also believe them to be the most commonly used weapons of husbands & boyfriends who rape.
And, force is often used not only to get sex, but to get the victim to do certain sexual acts that she doesn’t want to do. Forcing someone to do sexual acts they are not comfortable doing or that are painful is rape! Rape is defined as forcible sexual relations against someone’s will. If your partner forces you to perform oral or anal sex in spite of your protests, that is rape. I realize these are very common scenarios in relationships. So common, in fact, I don’t think many people, male or female, consider it rape when a man forces a woman to perform such behaviors against her will. That doesn’t mean it is OK though! Believe me, I’ve been there. I’ve been forced against my will to receive anal sex many times, in spite of my many protests. Just because it was by someone I was married to did not make it OK! In fact, it made our marriage worse by destroying any trust I felt for him. I also shut down emotionally with him.
If you’re being raped by your intimate partner, please know you do NOT have to do that any longer! Calling an abuser out on their behavior goes against everything in you after surviving narcissistic abuse, but you can change that about yourself! You should change this about yourself because you do not deserve to be treated this way!
Prayer is always the best place to start. Ask God to help you do whatever it is you need to do in this situation & to help your husband to see the error of his ways.
You must realize that this is not God’s will. It’s not Godly for a man to rape his wife. People may quote 1 Corinthians 7:5 ( “Do not deprive each other [of marital rights], except perhaps by mutual consent for a time, so that you may devote yourselves [unhindered] to prayer, but come together again so that Satan will not tempt you [to sin] because of your lack of self-control.” (AMP) ) or Ephesians 5:22 (“Wives, submit yourselves to your own husbands as you do to the Lord. ” (NIV) ) to women whose husbands have raped them. This only serves to confuse the wife & make her feel as if she has no rights. This is NOT God’s plan for marriage! Sex is never supposed to be a weapon or cause emotional or physical pain! Husbands are supposed to love their wives as Christ loved the church (Ephesians 5:23). A man who loves his wife that way would never rape his wife or purposely hurt her in any other way.
Also, I believe it is perfectly acceptable to speak up to your husband about this important matter. Yes, wives are to submit to our husbands, but in the face of sinful, abusive behavior, I honestly don’t see why God would object to confronting him. I haven’t seen anything in the Bible that says wives cannot speak up to their husbands when they are behaving in an ungodly manner.
If you need medical attention, & you tell the hospital staff what happened, the police may become involved, whether you want them to be or not. Just be prepared for that.
If you opt to leave your husband, prepare to the best of your ability. Have a safe place to go that he doesn’t know where it is. Save as much money as possible before leaving. And, don’t underestimate him. Abusers can be extremely devious & cruel.
Always remember, Dear Reader- God loves you so much. He doesn’t want you to be abused. He wants you to be loved & treated like the treasure He believes you are.