Over the years, some of my readers have told me that they believe I’m a warrior for those who have endured narcissistic abuse. That has always stuck in the back of my mind because I knew it was important.
Just recently, their words came to the forefront of my mind & wouldn’t leave. I knew it was important but didn’t know why. Every time I got onto Facebook the other day, I got a hint. I kept finding memes that said things about how victims of abuse need a voice when they can’t speak up, don’t be afraid to speak up against abuse, & other similar topics. I think it was 7 memes I found that spoke such messages to me. I realized what the purpose of all of this was.
I need to be more outspoken against narcissistic abuse, & to help educate people about its devastating effects. People don’t know much, if anything, about such topics unless they have been a victim, & that needs to change. I realize that I alone can’t change the world, but hopefully I can make a difference.
How I need to make a difference, I’m not entirely sure! So far, I think I need to focus on promoting & encouraging people to participate in The Butterfly Project with me, & share what I learn no only here in my blog, but also in my Facebook group & personal page.
I’d like to ask for prayer on this topic from you, Dear Readers. I need to know what to do & how to do it. I also need wisdom & courage to do God’s will.
While I feel peace about this, a part of me is also somewhat nervous.
I feel that God will want me to make some of the posts on my personal Facebook page public, which is something I never do. This also allows people I’m not friends with to see those posts, which makes me uncomfortable. I don’t want strangers peek into my life. This also could include people my parents know who are on Facebook. While I know the things I write about regarding my parents are true & never said in a hateful way, they would be furious if they knew what I write about. I really don’t want to deal with that.
Sharing on my personal Facebook also makes me nervous because when I’ve shared things about narcissism, C-PTSD & (rarely) my own experiences, some people I know have been less than supportive. I’ve been told to get over it, I’m using C-PTSD for attention, I need to figure out how to work things out with my parents, they won’t be around forever & other invalidating, cruel things. While I can handle their ignorance or spitefulness, it’s just not something I care to deal with. I’ve reached a point in my life where I’m simply tired of people who think I’m stupid, unreasonable, etc. or who project their own issues onto me. I try to avoid that as much as possible, & putting things on my personal Facebook page, even just attempting to educate people, could potentially open the door for such people
So as I mentioned, I really could use some prayer to help me do whatever it is God would have me do. Thank you so much, Dear Readers! And, you’re in my prayers as well! xoxo