Growing up, I really had no knowledge about God. My mother said if you’re good you go to Heaven, bad you go to Hell. No explanation of what was good or bad, & I had no idea how Jesus fit into the equation.
As things got worse with my mother as I got older, I decided I had absolutely no use for God. Obviously He didn’t care about me since I was going through so much at home. In fact, I believed He couldn’t even exist. How could a loving God exist & let me go through the things I did?
It wasn’t until I was in my twenties I realized how faulty this thinking was. I finally realized God did indeed exist & cared deeply about the pain I went through. That is when my healing began
If you are being or have been abused, I understand it can be very tempting to give up on God, or at least to think He doesn’t care about your pain. The truth though, Dear Reader, is that God hurts when you hurt. He is angry about what has been done to you, too. He knows all too well the unfairness of it all.
That may be hard to believe when you’re hurting, but it’s very true. Please don’t give up on God for not saving you from bad situations. The truth is He doesn’t force people to do anything, even when it’s in their best interest. God is a gentleman, never forcing people to do anything. He may suggest things, show evidence that certain things are a good idea & others bad ideas, but He never forces anything. He leaves the final decision on what to do up to each person & unfortunately many people make bad decisions. They ignore God’s promptings & do whatever they feel like. That is NOT God’s fault- the blame lies squarely on their shoulders. Why get mad at God for people making bad choices since it’s not His fault?
Dear Reader, God is in your corner. He always has been & always will be. If you wonder where He was when you were being abused, He was there, crying over your suffering. He was angry for you. He was distraught that your abuser didn’t pay attention to His promptings not to do these things.
Now that it’s over? God is there by your side, wanting to hug you & make it all better. He wants to help you through your pain. Let Him. Don’t get mad at God & shut Him out. Let Him help you instead. He will show you how to heal & how to make your pain count for something good. I know that sounds impossible, but it’s very true. He has done this for me & will do the same for you, too.