Before I write one word on this topic, let me just say that I don’t believe every single person who has experienced abuse must write books or a blog about their experiences. It’s a very good thing to do of course, but it also isn’t every person’s calling in life. If you’re reading this & immediately felt badly because you have yet to write publicly about your experiences, then please stop. You have no reason to feel badly! That may not be what God has planned for you, & there is absolutely nothing wrong with that!
That being said….
I firmly believe that everyone who has suffered narcissistic abuse needs to be open about their experiences. No victim has a reason to feel shame for being abused, so why hide it? Why pretend it didn’t happen? Instead, be open about your story. The Bible says in Proverbs 31:8-9:
“Speak up for the people who have no voice,
for the rights of all the down-and-outers.
Speak out for justice!
Stand up for the poor and destitute!” (MSG)
By being open about your story, you can help other people! Sharing your story in any capacity can let people know that they aren’t alone. There are so many victims who don’t understand their pain & your story can help them. There also are those who don’t know anything but abuse, & when they hear your similar story to theirs, their eyes open. Suddenly they see how wrong the things that were done to them were. Your story can give them the courage to walk away.
If you speak openly & without shame about your awful experiences, you can do more good than you realize. You can help people in so many ways by doing nothing more than talking.
And, if you think this is only about other people, you’re wrong. By being willing to discuss your own experiences, you can help yourself as well.
Do you know anything about the legends of vampires? I read quite a bit about them when I was a kid. I learned that vampires were very powerful, supernaturally powerful in fact, unless they were exposed to the sunlight. The sun would utterly destroy these impossibly strong, immortal beings by turning them into dust. That same principle applies to issues stemming from abuse. So long as they remain in the dark, in other words, they aren’t discussed, are ignored or hidden, they have a great deal of power. They control your life. Once you discuss them however, they lose that power like a vampire in the sunlight. Discussing your issues helps to release you from their hold over you somehow. It’s incredibly healing to be open about abusive experiences.
In my younger days, even though I knew something was very wrong, I still didn’t want to discuss the abusive situations I experienced. I felt like if I did so, I was betraying my abusive parents & ex husband. It seemed wrong to do anything other than hide what they did to me. Not that they told me I shouldn’t tell anyone what they were doing, but it was as if it was some unwritten rule that I shouldn’t tell anyone what they did. Many victims of abuse feel much the same as I did, that they shouldn’t “tattle” on their abuser.
I want to tell you today that this thinking is wrong. This is your story too, not only that of the abuser! You have every right to share as much or as little as you want to. Abusers aren’t the only ones who can talk about whatever they want! You have that right as well!
I do want you to know that if you opt to discuss your experiences freely either verbally or in writing, you need to be aware of the laws against libel & slander in your state. While you are free to discuss your situation, you also need to use wisdom when it comes to protecting yourself in any capacity from your abuser. Even with these limitations in place, you can say an awful lot, & help many people! I wish you the best in doing so! xoxo