I use an online diary. It sends me periodic emails saying things like, “Last year on this date, you wrote…” then includes a link to that entry. Recently it showed me an entry I made in February, 2020.
That day, I wrote about how I had joined Instagram to follow someone who shares information about Narcissistic Personality Disorder. I hadn’t even set anything up on my account when I got an email saying someone was following me. It turned out it was one of my cousins who was so awful to me when my father was dying. I blocked her at first, then immediately decided that wasn’t good enough. I deleted my Instagram account, & haven’t gone to the site since.
I prayed about this, asking God why would this person follow me? She hates me & has made the very clear for a long time. He told me something that I thought may help other victims of narcissistic abuse, so I want to share that with you today.
“She’s insanely, obsessively, morbidly envious. She thinks you’ve had this easy, charmed life. When she sees you “whining” about your childhood, it justifies her hatred of you in her mind. She felt her parents didn’t really care about her. She saw yours shelter you. That’s where the envy began.”
“She had to lie to herself about her parents’ loving her & being close to your aunt. She thinks you’re lying about yours & being a spoiled brat. She thinks you’re petty & weren’t really abused. She also can’t accept that her uncle would be abusive or marry someone who was.”
“She thinks abuse is only physical or sexual. Verbal abuse doesn’t count to her. She thinks NPD is a made up thing you use to justify talking about your parents as you do.”
“The devil feeds her delusions. He makes her think the things she does, & feeds her rage & disgust of you.”
Pretty disturbing isn’t it? Sadly though, many people abuse victims of narcissistic abuse & I would guess many have very similar motivations behind their behavior.
My mother was definitely the engulfing type of narcissistic mother, so to the outside world, she looked attentive, caring, & somewhat over protective. My father went along with her behavior. Also, I never complained because this is what abused kids learn to do to survive. To anyone not intimately involved with my parents & I, we looked like a tight knit family.
Consider my cousin I mentioned earlier. She came from a very dysfunctional & abusive childhood. It’s no wonder she thought my childhood was so happy & care free. She only saw what she was allowed to see, & never knew what went on behind closed doors. Her observations combined with the devil validating her feelings turned her into someone who is very envious for no good reason. Her way to cope with it was to treat me badly.
What about those in your life who have treated you similarly? Could this fit them as well? If so, there is only a small amount of advice I have on dealing with such people, but I believe it will help you as it has me.
Remember that their behavior stems from their dysfunction & lack of relationship with God. It isn’t really about you, although they will make it sound that way. Don’t accept whatever they say about you because it is wrong!
If at all possible, end the relationship. People like this are very convicted in their wrong beliefs. You won’t be able to change their mind, so don’t waste your time trying. Sever ties & block all ways they can reach you.
Lastly, pray for them. The Bible says we are to pray for our enemies, so pray for this person to see the truth & for evil spirits to leave them alone. Doing this helps them as well as you because over time, it helps you to release the anger you naturally feel towards them.
3 responses to “Why Some People Treat Victims Of Narcissistic Abuse So Badly”
VJ, well said. Mine is Yoga type stretching where I take a dozen slow cleansing breaths with each routine. Keith
Cynthia, please forgive the errant comment above, as my computer is jumpy. Here is a link to poem you might appreciate by Candice Daquin. Keith
Was wondering what that was about! Thanks for explaining.
Great poem… describes things well. Thank you for sharing!