Since my mother died, I’ve been concerned about her Salvation or lack thereof. I’d been praying for her for years now, but saw no evidence of any change. I asked God for a sign last Saturday if she was saved. No signs happened & I was discouraged.
Monday, hubby & I went to the funeral home to settle things. The guy who owns the place is a Christian. In his office, I saw a small model boat on a bookshelf. The boat’s name was Bailey. I thought that was interesting.. something felt strange though when I noticed that. I couldn’t put my finger on that feeling.
We had a nice long chat about our faith. As he was talking, he suddenly said, “The Lord is putting something on my heart. He wants me to tell you your mom accepted Him.” I had told no one I’d asked for a sign, but that was a big one!
A few minutes later, he said, “He wants me to tell you too, that everything is going to work out somehow. Trust Him. Everything is going to be just fine.” I left feeling a lot better than when I arrived.
And, I decided against a funeral. The people my mother was emotionally the closest to are physically far away. They’re also in failing health or elderly or both, so they won’t be able to attend. She only wanted a graveside service anyway, but still, there isn’t a point in having that for only a few people. My mother was practical so I believe she’d have been fine with my decision. Family members, however, I didn’t think would be. I was afraid of telling them of this considering how awful these people treated me when my father died.
Thank God, among all these awful people, He blessed me with a couple of good ones. One of my cousins said he would take care of telling my father’s family what happened & tell them they are NOT to contact me. So far, not a peep…
As for my mother’s family, I remembered I had an email for one of her cousins. That was the only contact information I had, so I used it. We’ve been talking & she’s been quite helpful. She’s dealt with my mother’s side of the family, so I haven’t needed to. The best part is when I explained there wouldn’t be a funeral & why, she said she thought it was the best solution since so many of her friends & family wouldn’t be able to attend. Whew…
God is truly working in this situation & blessing me beyond description right now. My mother’s salvation being the biggest blessing of all!
I hope this encourages you, Dear Reader. All things truly are possible with God! If my mother could turn to Him, that alone is proof all things are possible!
My mother has passed away. It looks like her heart, but no autopsy will be performed. She was 80 on the 16th, had heart problems & her cousin said she had complained her chest was hurting.
We’re also not positive when she passed, but likely it was on her birthday or early in the morning after. Reason being, she spoke to her cousin daily. For 3 days after her birthday, this cousin couldn’t reach her. Living out of state, she contacted the local police for a welfare check. They found her dead in her chair.
It’s a terribly sad scenario. Dying alone & remaining that way for some time. But thankfully it most likely happened very quickly & probably she didn’t suffer. That is some positive at least.
I’m also so blessed… after what happened when my father was dying 18 months ago, I dreaded dealing with family. (If you don’t remember, many relatives sent me abusive messages telling me how awful I was for not going to say good bye. It happened daily & sometimes multiple times a day during his final 20 days in the hospital & periodically prior to that for his final few months. Not a nice time!) My cousin volunteered to take care of my father’s side of the family & keep them away from me. My mother’s cousin who called the police notified her side of the family. Thankfully the daunting task of dealing with these people has been taken care of & I’m no worse for wear. 🙂
Apparently, much to my surprise, my mother left this situation in my hands. I’ve never dealt with anything like this & have no idea what I’m doing. I am pretty overwhelmed to say the least. If you’d be kind enough, I’d appreciate some prayers to help me get through this situation. Thank you! xoxo
Many people don’t seem to realize that the silent treatment & no contact are very different things. As a result, many people shame victims who implement no contact. They call victims immature, spoiled, unreasonable & more, saying victims are pouting or trying to punish their abuser when the truth is, abusers are the ones who are being immature, unreasonable & trying to punish their victims by using the silent treatment.
No contact isn’t done to punish or hurt anyone. It is done because a victim has tried & tried to make the relationship better yet nothing has improved. It’s a desperate, last ditch effort to protect a person’s mental & physical health by escaping an abusive person. Any person can take only so much before it affects their health.
No contact is also permanent. There is no going back for the victim who has settled on no contact as their best option. That is partly why so much serious consideration goes into it. Contrary to what many folks believe (primarily abusers & their flying monkeys), almost every single person who has implemented no contact in their life did so only after months or even years of a lot of thought & prayer. It’s not a spur of the moment decision done in the heat of anger.
This also means that victims don’t want their abusers trying to contact them in any way. They don’t want calls, texts, emails, etc. in some pathetic attempt to lure or scare the victim into returning to the relationship. Many abusers seem to think their victims want this type of harassment & it will win their victims back, but nothing could be further from the truth. When a person goes no contact, it’s because they want NO CONTACT, period. It isn’t some attempt to get the abuser’s attention. Abusers often think this is the case, because that is what they want to accomplish by not speaking to someone.
The silent treatment is done on the spur of the moment. Abusers are spontaneous people, & not in a good way. Anything a victim says or does can make an abuser decide in an instant to use the silent treatment. Or, a victim doesn’t have to say or do anything. Abusers don’t exactly have the most integrity in the world. If they want silent treatment drama, they certainly aren’t above creating it by inventing some imaginary slight from their victim.
The silent treatment is done to manipulate & control. The goal is to make the victim feel so insecure & badly that he or she comes crawling to the abuser, apologizing profusely & being willing to do anything to make it up to the abuser. The abuser rarely tells the victim what awful sin he or she committed, but instead makes the victim guess. This makes the victim easier to control & more willing to try harder. I remember my mother using the line, “If you don’t know what you did, I’m not going to tell you.” Not exactly a healthy or useful way to cope with conflict.
The silent treatment is also done to punish victims. When you aren’t aware of what the silent treatment is all about, it can be devastating! I remember my mother giving me the silent treatment countless times my entire life. It was a horrible feeling when my own mother wouldn’t speak to me or even tell me why. In fact, my mother once stopped speaking to me for 18 months several years ago. Why she did that, she never would say.
The silent treatment is also temporary. It ends when an abuser gets their way or becomes bored with it. A victim knows when it’s over too, because the abuser contacts them acting like nothing happened that was out of the ordinary.
There is one last big difference between the silent treatment & no contact. Victims grow accustomed to the silent treatment. After enduring it so many times, it stops upsetting them. Abusers are always shocked by no contact, no matter how horribly they treated their victims. And ironically, the ones who seem the most shocked by no contact are the ones who repeatedly used the silent treatment.
I recently had an idea. I am going to create a series of small books that focus on only one facet of narcissism & narcissistic abuse at a time. Each book will be maybe 1/4 the size of my regular book & naturally much cheaper. I think this is a unique way to get information out there & hopefully it will help raise awareness too.
I’ll be releasing a few in the near future, I’m thinking maybe 3 or so, & I’ll post about it when that happens. I don’t want to release a series that contains only one book, yanno?
When the books are available, they will be available on my website at:
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One very popular weapon in the narcissistic arsenal is guilt. Covert narcissists in particular are very fond of using guilt as a means of control. It’s understandable it’s such a common weapon considering how very effective guilt can be. It also is unfair & even cruel.
So how can you cope when your narcissistic parent uses guilt trips?
First, pray. Ask God for wisdom & discernment so you understand when guilt is being used on you & ways to cope with it.
You also need to recognize what is a guilt trip & what isn’t. You need to know when someone is saying something to manipulate you or to help you to change & improve yourself. Statements like, “It hurt my feelings when you said/did….” can help you. Statements that simply make you feel guilty like, “After all I’ve done for you, this is how you repay me?” however aren’t to help you, but to control you.
You also need to be aware of the fact narcissistic supply is at the root of every single thing a narcissist does. Guilt trips are a part of that. Being able to control someone via guilt provides supply as does seeing that person upset about the guilt. The more you allow the guilt trips to work on you, the more the narcissist will use them on you. The best thing you can do is to pretend not to notice the guilt at all when you’re in the narcissist’s presence. Later, when away from her, vent to your heart’s content of course, but when in her presence or even on the phone with her, pretend you didn’t notice a thing. If she realizes guilt trips don’t work on you, she’ll stop using them since she sees they aren’t effective.
Don’t justify yourself or your actions. If you do, you’re only making yourself look guilty, which could mean the narcissist will get meaner. Probably my most successful interaction with my late covert narcissist mother in-law involved guilt from her. She wanted me to do something for her one day but I had plans. Granted, I could’ve changed them, but I didn’t want to. Not for someone who hated me & treated me so poorly. She kept trying to find out what my plans were. She said things like, “You sure must have something important to do if you won’t do this for me.” “I guess you’re doing something for your parents since you won’t help me…” Rather than explain my plans (which weren’t her business!), I ignored her. Since I didn’t tell her, she got mad, but couldn’t be mad at me without looking foolish in front of her husband & mine. By not justifying my actions, I protected my privacy, avoided more nastiness from her & she never tried to guilt trip me again. In fact, I found the entire thing funny because her behavior was so ridiculous. Much better to laugh than to be angry or hurt!
Remember, if you have done something wrong, you should feel some guilt since it will help you to improve your behavior. However, if you haven’t done anything wrong, then do NOT allow the guilt trip to work on you.
During the course of healing from narcissistic abuse, you may want to confront your narcissistic parent. You may want to let her have it, to tell her she’s abusive & evil, to tell her although she tried, she didn’t destroy you & many other things. In your fantasy of doing this, she breaks & apologizes for all of the hurt she has caused you. She says she wants to change, & to make it up to you for all of the damage she has done.
Unfortunately this is a very unrealistic expectation.
Narcissists don’t admit to any wrong doing on their part. They often do one of three things- either blame the victim for making them do what they did, say it happened an entirely different way or deny it ever happened in the first place. As a result, often confronting the narcissist is more damaging to the victim than if they don’t confront.
Confrontation is certainly your choice. You have every right to call out an abuser on her abusive behavior. However, you need to have realistic expectations on how the situation may happen for it to be a healthy choice for you.
If you confront your narcissistic parent, will it help you to get it all out to her? Will it help you to call her out on what she has done even if she denies it or blames you? If so, then confrontation is a good option for you.
However, if you expect that your narcissistic mother will suddenly have a moment of lucidity, then accept full responsibility for her actions, genuinely repenting of what she has done, you are setting yourself up for serious disappointment. In fact, that disappointment may be devastating for you.
Probably around 10 years ago, my father went through a phase of complaining even more than usual about his & my mother’s marriage to me. I hate that! That is emotional incest & abusive! I don’t want or need to know about their marriage problems, yet both of my parents have dumped them on me my entire life. One day when I saw him alone, I finally decided enough was enough. I was tired of changing the subject to get him to stop complaining. I had to tell him that he was hurting me, & it needed to stop. So I did. I told him those words- “It hurts me when you complain to me about your marriage & about Mom. Please stop it. Find someone else to talk to.” He responded by saying, “Oh ok.. but just this one more thing…” He went on to complain about her for 45 more minutes until he left my home! (Yes, I timed it! I was curious how long it’d go on.) I ended up even more hurt than I was originally, because at this point, he knew he was hurting me yet did what hurt me anyway.
When considering confronting your narcissistic parent, please consider it long & hard. Pray about it too, & ask God to show you what you should do & if you should confront, how you should do it. I would hate to see you hurt, Dear Reader, so please do those things before you confront your narcissistic parent! xoxo
Ending a relationship with anyone is a huge decision, in particular when it comes to family members. If you read anything about people who are victims of narcissistic abuse, they’re frequently told, “Just go no contact.”
No contact is a very viable option for victims, & usually the best one. However, it also isn’t an easy solution. I have yet to talk to one person who has implemented no contact that came to that decision easily. It often came after months or even years of wondering if there was any other solution & much trying to turn a toxic relationship into a healthy one.
The purpose of this post today is to help you to gain some clarity on whether or not no contact is your best option.
To start with, I always recommend prayer. Ask God to show you the truth about your relationship, what you should do, how to handle the situation & to give you strength, courage & wisdom to do what is best.
Then, consider your relationship. There is a difference between someone who is abusive & someone with whom you just don’t get along. Personality clashes can be very challenging & frustrating, but they also don’t leave a person feeling badly about themselves or even doubting their own sanity. How does this relationship make you feel?
Are you the only one in the relationship who is trying to make it healthy? If not, that’s great! If so, that is a sign this person is toxic.
Does the other person make excuses or blame you for their bad behavior? Do you come away from a confrontation feeling as if you’re the problem every single time? That is a huge red flag! Healthy people accept responsibility for what they do wrong. They also apologize, try to fix things when possible & change their behavior.
How does the other person react to you setting reasonable boundaries? Healthy people are fine with boundaries. Unhealthy people, not so much. They get angry, pout, behave in passive/aggressive ways, ignore & mock boundaries.
Probably by now, you have more clarity on whether or not you should end the relationship. If you think you do need to end it, there are other things you should consider too, especially if this person is a family member.
Possibly the most important thing to consider is this. If you go no contact, will you be able to stay no contact, no matter what? Going no contact then later resuming a relationship with an abuser never ends well for the victim. Reason being is abusers see this as a victim having weak boundaries that mean nothing. They can be trampled over with no real consequences for the abuser. This means an abuser will behave worse than ever when they understand this.
For your own peace of mind, I also believe it’s important to know you tried your best in the relationship. No, one person can’t fix any relationship on their own. However, having peace of mind knowing you did your best is very beneficial. So many abusers do anything they can to make a victim think they didn’t do enough before severing ties or if they just would have done that one thing, the relationship wouldn’t have failed. When you truly know you did your best, those sorts of tactics don’t work.
Going no contact also means losing friends & family who side with the abuser. You need to be aware that will happen, even with those who you never expected to abandon you.
Lastly, what do you feel in your heart is the right move for you to make? Instincts are a wonderful thing & I believe God’s still small voice speaking to us. Trust what you feel in your heart, & you’ll know if no contact is the right decision for you.
Have you ever been discussing the abuse from the narcissist in your life with someone who has told you that you need to be the bigger person & let this go? I have. Lots of times. So have many other victims of all kinds of abuse.
Recently, this came to mind for some reason. I thought about it & realized that this never felt right to me. It seemed somehow patronizing, invalidating, manipulative & shaming but I was unsure why I felt that way. After thinking about it, I think I figured the reasons.
If a victim is told they need to be the bigger person, it’s shaming. It basically says, “Something is wrong with you for being upset about this! Get over it already!” Shaming can be utterly devastating to victims of narcissistic abuse. Nothing can shut down a victim faster than shame, in my opinion. Saying, “You need to be the bigger person!” is an easy way for someone to stop a victim from discussing their abusive situation & pain.
Some people who have survived abusive relationships absolutely refuse to face their pain. They ignore it, or even pretend the abuse didn’t happen or that it wasn’t really abusive. When someone discusses their abusive history, these people are determined to shut them down immediately, because they don’t want any reminders of their own pain. They may not be acting out of malice as some people do. They simply don’t have the strength or courage to face their pain. Telling a victim to be the bigger person is an effective way for them to shut the victim down without sounding harsh.
If the person who says this is also a narcissist, that puts an interesting spin on the situation. That person probably sees no problem with the abuse, since they act in a similar way. When the victim points out it’s wrong, that could be offending this narcissist’s sensibilities. He or she wants to shut down the victim so he or she can go on acting terribly without any remorse. Not to mention, it’s not about the narcissist, so the narcissist couldn’t care less. Narcissists also lack empathy, so the narcissist doesn’t want to be bothered with what he or she sees as your petty problems. Or maybe the person could be a flying monkey of the original narcissist, & simply trying to shut the victim down & force the victim to continue to tolerate the awful & abusive behavior from their narcissist.
“You need to be the bigger person!” also shows that the person saying it thinks that the victim has the ability to be mature. They aren’t saying it to the abuser, after all. That can be flattering, & as victims, most of us aren’t used to someone believing anything good about us. It can be a good way for someone to shut down a victim while assuring the victim won’t get angry with the person saying this stupid phrase since it can sound flattering.
I truly believe that someone saying, “You need to be the bigger person!” basically boils down to a way that people try to silence victims by using shaming while simultaneously making victims feel they should not be angry at the person who is attempting to shut them down with this phrase. And in many cases, the person saying it also is trying to convince the victim to tolerate the abuse. It’s a lot packed into one phrase, isn’t it?
If someone says this to you, please take it as a red flag! This person isn’t safe for you to open up to about the abuse that you’ve endured! Of course you should talk about it not only to help yourself heal but also to help raise awareness of the horrors of narcissistic abuse. However, not everyone is safe to talk with about your experiences. Use wisdom in choosing who to open up to. Anyone who tells you to be the bigger person is NOT someone you need to open up to!
A major pet peeve of mine when it comes to narcissism is how so many people think the victim is responsible for the feelings of the narcissist. Here are a couple of examples from my life…
- When my mother’s abuse hit its peak when I was in my late teens, she spent a great deal of time daily screaming at me, telling me how terrible I was. One afternoon, her friend called. I answered the phone since my mother was busy. This person told me how I needed to start ‘behaving myself’, obeying my mother & how lucky I was to have a mother who loved me so much. I didn’t feel lucky!
- When I broke my engagement with my ex husband in 1990, everyone who knew us told me I was making him miserable & should get back together with him. No one cared that I was miserable with him or asked why I even broke up with him.
- When my father was dying in October, 2017, I can’t even tell you how many people told me I needed to say good bye to him so he could die in peace, I wasn’t honoring my parents, I was a “bad Christian,” I needed to “put my feelings aside” & more nonsense. Not one person cared why I was no contact with my parents.
Pretty disgusting, isn’t it? And I know I am far from the only person who has experienced situations like this. It seems to me every victim of a narcissist has been made to feel responsible for their narcissist’s feelings not only because of the narcissist making them feel this way, but other people too.
Dear Reader, although you may know this already, this is WRONG! You are absolutely NOT responsible for the narcissist’s feelings any more than you are responsible for any other human being’s feelings. Each person is responsible for their own, & that includes narcissists. Even though narcissists often act like spoiled, bratty little kids in adult bodies, they’re still adults & that means that their feelings are their responsibility, not yours.
When faced with people who do their best to make you feel responsible for the feelings of the narcissist in your life, chances are slim you will make them see the error of their thinking. Probably it will be best for you simply to ignore what they say. Change the subject, tell them you won’t discuss this topic with them, or ignore their text or email. Why frustrate yourself trying to change the mind of someone who is determined that their thinking is right while you are absolutely wrong?
If you feel you must say something to the person, treat them as you treat any flying monkey. Remain calm & don’t let them see that you’re frustrated with them. You can ask them logical questions too. “What makes this person’s feelings so much more important than mine?” “Why are this person’s feelings my responsibility?” “Other people take responsibility for their own feelings- what makes her exempt from doing that?” Questions like that may shut the person down because really, there is no reasonable answer to those questions. Of course, they may try to come up with excuses, such as the infamous, “But that’s your MOTHER/FATHER/etc.!” If they do, let logic prevail again. “So you’re saying that because this is my mother/father/etc we’re talking about, that I should be responsible for his/her feelings?” “You mean that you honestly think I should do ___ to make him/her happy, even knowing how miserable that would make me? That really makes sense to you?!”
Whenever these situations come up (& they will if you have any relationship at all with a narcissist), be sure to pray about the best way to handle them. God won’t let you down & He will give you some very creative & effective ways to shut these people down.
When a relationship ends, the average person is sad for some time. They may fondly remember special times with the other person or great conversations. They miss such things, but in time, they’re ok. They move on & get involved in other relationships. This is a healthy way to cope, because it allows a person to heal.
Nothing like this happens with narcissists.
Narcissists are incapable of truly loving. Because of this, a relationship that has ended doesn’t affect them in the same way as it affects your average person.. They don’t miss the person they love, but instead, they miss their favorite source of narcissistic supply. This is why they act differently than functional people when a relationship ends. Narcissistic supply is like a drug to them. When a relationship ends, they’re losing their “fix”, if you will. That isn’t an easy thing for any addict to handle.
To start with, narcissists don’t usually understand why someone ends a relationship with them. To understand, they would need at least some empathy, which most people know is something that all narcissists lack. They don’t understand why their ex would object to them cheating, why that former friend complained that they took advantage of their good nature, or why their adult child was hurt when they cut their child out of the will for simply telling the parent, “no.” Narcissists are incapable of grasping such concepts. In their minds, they’re entitled to whatever they want. Besides, the behavior didn’t hurt them, so it isn’t important to them. If it had hurt them, they’d change their behavior at the speed of sound. Since it didn’t though, they are left baffled why their partner, friend or child ended the relationship. What the other person wanted or felt wasn’t so much as a blip on their radar. All that matters to a narcissist is what they want, which usually boils down to their precious narcissistic supply. Since the wants of the narcissist & victim are vastly different & the victim’s are not even considered by the narcissist, usually the end of a relationship catches them by surprise. Their victims often warn them for months or even years in advance that they won’t tolerate the abuse forever, yet still, narcissists are shocked when someone ends a relationship with them.
Narcissists also don’t like rejection. No one does, of course, but narcissists are infuriated by it. Rejection is a narcissistic injury. It makes them feel badly about themselves, so the person who rejected them must pay for making them feel that way. Rather than walk away from the failed relationship with some semblance of dignity, most narcissists opt for revenge. Overt narcissists often harass & stalk their victim, & get their flying monkeys in on the process as well. They also will unleash a very impressive smear campaign, lying about the victim being the cause for the failure of the relationship because of being selfish, crazy, controlling & even abusive. This often isolates the victim from friends & even family who believe the lies. Covert narcissists are much less likely to harass & stalk their victim, since they prefer to look like a good person, but some will or have their flying monkeys do their dirty work for them. They also don’t have any trouble creating a smear campaign, but it is much different than their overt counterparts. Rather than say outright their victim is crazy & abusive, they phrase their smear campaign in a way so as not to sound critical, but concerned instead. They may say something along the lines of, “I’m not surprised my ex left me. She got so mean when she took drugs. She just wasn’t herself. I hope she’ll be ok…” See how this smear is? It makes the person saying these things sound concerned & as if he isn’t trying to destroy the reputation of his ex girlfriend. People will believe this type of smear campaign very easily, even if they know the ex in question & know she never took drugs.
There is also the likelihood of the narcissist trying to “hoover” the victim back into the relationship. When this happens, the narcissist may do their best to make the victim believe they have changed. They may make promises that they have no intention of keeping such as they won’t do whatever the victim complained about anymore. Some other empty promises are if the victim would only take the narcissist back, he or she will be faithful, they’ll be less selfish, they’ll think more of their victim’s needs. The narcissist also may shower the victim with expensive gifts or love letters. They may send their flying monkeys to tell the victim how miserable they are without the victim, & how desperately they want to resume the relationship. This is a tough one, I know. When I first broke up with my now ex husband, it seemed like everyone we knew was telling me how sad he was, how miserable he was, how much he missed me & how I really should get back together with him. I felt so incredibly guilty at that time that I agreed not only to return to him but to marry him after only a short time apart.
Sometimes, narcissists fall into depression after a relationship ends, too. They have no coping skills & aren’t fully aware of their emotions, plus they just lost their narcissistic supply. It’s normal they wouldn’t handle any break up well when you consider these facts. This can be so hard for the person who ended the relationship. When people tell you how sad this person is or he says he doesn’t want to live without you, it can be incredibly hard to take. It can make you feel incredibly guilty & responsible, which is truly unfair.
If you experience these things after ending a relationship with a narcissist, I urge you to remember that the narcissist is acting this way not out of a genuine & healthy love for you, but because he or she is a narcissist. They are incredibly dysfunctional people. You stick to no contact, & remind yourself often exactly why you came to that decision. Write things down if it helps, since writing can be an incredibly useful tool. Also remember that person’s emotions aren’t your responsibility. Don’t forget to document everything in case you need to involve the law at some point. Even if you don’t, the documentation will help you a great deal to remember why you’re no contact. It’ll also help you to see the way this person tries to manipulate you. And, if the narcissist creates a smear campaign against you, never, ever react to it. Any reaction would give this person narcissistic supply, so you deprive this person of that supply. In time, he or she will get bored with your lack of reaction & give up the smearing. Lastly, if the narcissist sends the flying monkeys after you, remember that few are truly innocent people who are fooled by the narcissist. Most are also narcissists, I believe. Treat them accordingly. Remember to tell them nothing that you would object to the original narcissist knowing, in particular anything about the original narcissist. Chances are the flying monkey will share everything you say with that person, so give them no material to work with. Most importantly, pray & lean on God to help you get through this. He truly will help you!
When a person has been abused, they tend to see the world differently than other folks. People like this aren’t as trusting as the average person, & with good reason. They have survived some pretty terrible stuff! This isn’t necessarily a bad thing, considering how many untrustworthy people there are in the world. However, it can become a bad thing. A good friend of mine once called it “seeing things through the lens of victim-hood.” I thought the term made perfect sense.
When a person sees others as out to hurt them with little or no evidence to prove this is happening, it’s a bad thing.
Or when a person reads so much into every small comment or action that they see others as out to get them, this is a bad thing.
Unfortunately, it can be very easy to turn out this way after surviving abuse. It can be especially easy to see problems online over face to face contact. Once you’ve been badly hurt, you obviously want to avoid it again. It’s very easy to become hyper-vigilant, seeing abusive behavior everywhere. A person looks at you a bit odd or cracks a joke that isn’t like your sense of humor & suddenly you think they’re out to hurt you when nothing could be further from the truth. This is no way to live!
Rather than succumb to this miserable lifestyle, change yourself! It is possible! I was this way & managed to change. If I can do it, so can you.
As always, I recommend prayer as the place to start. God can & will help you to make whatever changes you need. He also will show you what you need to do. Why not let Him?
Also slow down when a situation happens. Respond, don’t react. Responding isn’t instantaneous. It requires time to consider the situation. Reacting is instantaneous & done in the heat of emotions. Reacting often happens when seeing situations through the lens of victim-hood. Give yourself time to consider the situation before you respond.
Don’t automatically assume that your knee-jerk reaction is correct. Consider it. Question it. Slow your thoughts down for some time & ask yourself why you think the way you’re thinking. Is there evidence to back up what you believe is happening? What is that evidence? Are there red flags that show you this person isn’t safe, such as a lack of empathy for example? Write it down if it helps. Writing can help you to see things clearly, often more clearly than speaking or thinking about things.
Think too about the person in question. If this is someone you know well, you will know what this person is & is not capable of. You know if this person is safe or not. Ask yourself, is it likely this person is out to hurt me or not?
If you want advice, don’t talk to someone else about the situation in a way that will get them assuming the worst about this person. If they believe you, they will only feed your fear. They’ll automatically respond to your fear with fear, especially if this is someone you’re close to. If you want to talk about your situation with someone safe, that’s totally fine. An objective opinion can be a truly great thing! Just make sure you say things in such a way that the person who you’re speaking with can form their own opinion. Say things like, “I think this person is looking to hurt me in some way.. what do you think?” then state the facts without emotion. Let this person form their own opinion if you want their best advice.
Just remember, Dear Reader, not everyone is abusive. Not everyone wants to cause you pain & suffering. Pray & seriously consider the situation so you can respond to it appropriately, rather than reacting because you’re seeing it through the lens of victim-hood.
I remember when I first realized that my mother was a narcissist. Although it was painful, I was glad finally to understand why she treated me as she did. The raging, the silent treatments, the manipulation & control.. suddenly it all made sense. She blamed me for all of it, but the truth was it wasn’t me. It was her!
It was another few years before I realized my father was a narcissist as well. It took me so long because he was a covert narcissist.
My mother being an overt narcissist made it obvious something wasn’t right. Normal mothers didn’t keep their daughters from getting to know their extended family. They also didn’t scream at their teenage daughters daily, often multiple times in a day. They didn’t accuse their daughters of completely uncharacteristic behaviors, such as having sex with their entire high school football team, especially when there was no evidence to support this wild claim.
My father was nothing like this at all. For most of my life, I was convinced he was my one nice, normal parent. I was wrong.
While my father didn’t scream at me or accuse me of outrageous behaviors, he abused me nonetheless. He didn’t protect me from my mother. In fact, when I told him of some of her abusive behaviors, he would tell me how hard this was on him, & how there was nothing he could do to protect me. In spite of my pain, I often ended up comforting him after my mother abused me.
Compared to my mother’s constant criticisms & rages, I didn’t think this was a problem. He told me he loved me, unlike my mother who stopped saying it when I was in my teens. My father also complemented me, & bragged about me to other people. My mother didn’t do either.
As an adult, married with my own home, I finally noticed some subtle changes in my father’s behavior. He became critical. Nothing obvious like my mother at first, but still critical. He became more critical over the years. He also became more controlling in subtle ways. If I didn’t answer his call immediately, the next time we spoke, he would tell me how he thought I must be mad at him since I didn’t answer the phone. If I said I wasn’t home at the time, he didn’t believe me. Or, he would call folks we both knew, asking them to contact me & have me call him immediately because he was worried about me.
Eventually, I realized my father was a covert narcissist, & that fact truly hurt.
My situation is quite similar to that of many adult children of narcissistic parents. Accepting the overtly narcissistic parent is abusive is difficult, but it can be done. Accepting their covertly narcissistic parent is abusive is a much more difficult task, & can be impossible for some people.
The nature of a covert narcissist’s abuse is what makes the abuse so hard to comprehend. There is no obvious abuse. They don’t hit or scream. Their abuse is so much more subtle. They use guilt, disapproval, silence & portraying themselves as innocent, naive, in need of saving or protection. They also can turn a situation around to where they look like the innocent victim instead of the abuser, rather than the other way around as it should be.
This creates a cognitive dissonance in victims. In other words, the victim often may see the truth, but doesn’t want to accept it because it’s so painful.
There is also the fact that it’s hurtful enough to accept that one parent didn’t love you. Accepting both parents didn’t is even more so. Even when you understand it’s because they’re narcissists, knowing both of your parents didn’t love you can make you feel unlovable.
If this describes your situation, I’m so sorry, Dear Reader. You are in an extremely painful situation. Pray, journal, talk to safe people… do whatever you have to do to help you face this ugly truth & to heal. It will help you in the long run to face this awful situation. You can do this!
In a recent conversation, I’ve come to realize something that may help at least some of you who follow my work.
The conversation was with someone who is involved with a very covert narcissist. She has broken off their relationship months ago, but he continues to call & to try to hoover her back in. She has wanted to tell him to stop calling her, but hasn’t. Based on some of his past controlling behavior, she & I both believe that he is one of those narcissists who would harass & stalk her. She knows what that’s like, having gone through it with me at the hands of a narcissist I went no contact with several years ago, so she wants to avoid that if at all possible, & understandably so!
Rather than face the probability of stalking & harassment, she has opted to use the Gray Rock method, in the hopes that her ex will lose all interest in her. So far, it has worked pretty well. He no longer calls her daily, only a few times a week. This is big progress! Even so, she still wants rid of him completely.
As we talked, I had a thought that I think might work well for her, & it might benefit some of you as well..
Obviously, he is losing interest in her, which is why he isn’t calling so often. Now might be a good time to give him some narcissistic turn offs. She is great with not providing narcissistic supply, but I suggested she also try to take some from him using ways that aren’t bad enough to provoke rage. Turn offs, basically.
One thing that he wants her to do to provide him with supply are always look good. Dress well, makeup done.. things like this. When he sees her, I suggested she dress frumpy. Wear sweats & no makeup. Also never call him since that can make him think she is still interested in him thus providing narcissistic supply. He likes to go out or travel, so she will make a point of exaggerating her naturally introverted & home body ways. She can talk about how glad she is to be at home & have nowhere to be for the weekend, things like this.
Little things like this can be explained away easily, like she just wanted to be comfortable which is why sweats & no make up. This means they most likely won’t bring about a narcissistic rage, especially considering he is trying to behave so she will come back to him. But, these things don’t provide supply, they also are big turn offs & they will get under his skin. At some point, he is going to get sick of her lack of supply & my guess is he will discard her. The good part of this is that if he discards her, he thinks ending the relationship is all his idea, so he won’t stalk or harass her. He will leave her alone.
I did mention that if she does this & he discards her, he’ll probably do the smear campaign thing. She said she really doesn’t care what people think of her, so thankfully that isn’t going to be a problem for her.
Dear Reader, I don’t know your situation with your particular narcissist, so obviously I can’t say making the narcissist want to discard you is your answer if you’re having trouble going no contact. Only you know if this will work for you. I urge you to pray & seriously consider it though. So many narcissists, after a victim has gone no contact, harass their victims in real life, over the phone & on social media. Others who are more covert do the same but with less hostility than their overtly narcissistic counterparts. They claim just to want answers, promise they’ll change, use guilt or portray themselves as the victim as they harass the true victim. If this awful behavior can be avoided or even just minimized by acting this way, then isn’t it worth considering at least?
I’ve been working on a book for a while now about toxic/narcissistic in-laws. I’m struggling to write it for a few reasons. I’ve been really distracted by things going on in my life since I started this book 2 years ago. I also felt that I needed to put it on the back burner to write other books. The topic is such a hard one for me to write about too, because I honestly have been through hell because of some of my husband’s family, & I’m still healing. And, in spite of taking frequent breaks, I’m pretty burned out on all things narcissism. These issues make this one tough book to write. That being said, I believe the topic is an important one so I will finish it. It just may take some time.
Since my book is delayed, here is a post to help identify whether or not your in-laws are toxic. I will write from the perspective of a daughter in-law with a toxic mother in-law, since that is the bulk of my experience as well as the bulk of the experiences of people I’ve spoken with. The information is good for toxic sisters in-law, fathers in-law, etc. though.
Does your mother in-law ignore you? The purpose of this behavior is to show you that you mean nothing to her.
Does she refuse to accept responsibility for treating you badly? Rather than say something like, “I shouldn’t have said that.. I’m sorry,” does she make excuses for her words or actions or deny them completely? This is a big red flag. Functional people accept responsibility for what they say & do.
Does your mother in-law have a different personality depending on whether or not you are alone with her or others are around? Another big red flag! Any abuser will behave differently to their victim depending on whether or not there are witnesses. They want to hide their abuse from other people.
Does she expect you to be blindly devoted to her family, even to the point of rejecting your own family & friends? Many toxic mothers in-law remind me of the Borg from the tv show “Star Trek: The Next Generation.” They expect their son’s or daughter’s new spouse to become completely enmeshed in their new in-law family.
Like the Borg, toxic mothers in-law expect their new sons or daughters in-law to adapt to their opinions, religion, way of life, etc. Individuality is highly discouraged by toxic mothers in-law. I once told my late mother in-law I hate to cook. I do it, but hate it. For Christmas a few months later, she & her 2 daughters gave me nothing but cookbooks, utensils, food & other cooking paraphernalia.
Toxic in-laws show no respect. Toxic in-laws show no respect for personal space, choices, likes/dislikes, parenting, & even boundaries.
And speaking of a lack of respect, your mother in-law makes it clear to you that she doesn’t like you. Unless you abuse your mother in-law’s adult child or your children, if your mother in-law had any respect whatsoever for her child, she would be civil to you no matter how much she disliked you. The inability to be civil even only for the sake of her adult child proves she is toxic.
Is she manipulative & controlling? Toxic people, in particular narcissists, must be in charge. Chances are, your mother in-law controls her spouse & children. Since you married one of her children, she expects you to be as control-able & easily manipulated as everyone else. When you say no, she is NOT happy.
If your toxic mother in-law is nice to you, it’s short lived & in front of others only. Very few people are cruel 100% of the time. Toxic people bring out their nice side when it can be advantageous to them. Being nice sometimes will make their victim want to see it more, so they work harder to please the toxic person. Also, being nice to a victim in front of others helps the toxic person prove to others that if you complain about the relationship, you are obviously the problem.
Mothers in-law like this care nothing of their adult child beyond what he can do for her. They clearly have no respect for him either, since they treat the person he chose to spend his life with so badly. His marriage is nothing more to this kind of mother than an embarrassment, & she would like it simply to go away. Since she can’t file for divorce on his behalf, she becomes extremely destructive to the adult child’s marriage with her abusive ways.
Your spouse no doubt suffers greatly from his mother’s abusive behavior, yet tolerates it anyway. This is because he is accustomed to how his mother behaves. This is his norm & many adults in this situation have accepted this as their permanent reality. By complaining about his mother’s behavior or even confronting her, this threatens his norm. Facing the truth can be incredibly painful for many in this position, which is why many refuse to face the truth. This feeling is known as cognitive dissonance. Rather than face this miserable feeling, many people in this situation will do their best to shut down their spouse. They don’t want to hear about the bad things their mother is doing, so they will tell their wife they don’t believe her, she is over sensitive, she just doesn’t understand Mom, that’s her problem so she needs to leave him out of it & more. They refuse to confront their mother on behalf of their wife.
Naturally, the wife in this position feels rejected, unloved & hurt. She wants to fight for her marriage, but it seems whatever she does is wrong, & whatever his mother does is right. Her trying to save her marriage only causes more problems. The reason for this is she doesn’t know that when you’re dealing with a narcissist, normal ways to cope don’t work.
For anyone in this position, you need to think of this situation more like a game of strategy than a relationship.
As always pray. Ask God to help you to know what to do & to give you whatever you need to enable you to do it. Pray for your husband to see the truth & for God to enable him to be able to cope with it, too.
Cope with your emotions as best you can by journaling, talking to a safe friend, pray.. whatever works for you. Whatever you do, don’t hold in your emotions!
Don’t focus on your mother in-law’s bad behavior when it can be avoided. Instead, focus on being the loving wife that you are. Don’t neglect to remind your husband how much you love him. If he complains about his mother to you for any reason, don’t join in. Listen quietly to him & give him objective advice if he asks for it. The reason being, the mindset of many people in this situation is they can complain about Mom, but if anyone else does, they jump to her defense. This would only cause more problems in your marriage.
Along those lines, if you discuss his mother’s behavior with him, stay calm. State your issues in a matter of fact way, lacking emotion. If you rant & rave, that too will make him feel he must defend his mother, which only will hurt you & possibly your marriage.
Limit your exposure to your mother in-law as much as possible, but especially alone. No narcissist wants to abuse their victim in front of the person they want to think well of them, so stay glued to your husband’s side as much as possible.
Keep your emotions in check around your mother in-law. Narcissists love to twist a victim’s normal reaction around to prove how mentally unstable or even abusive the victim is to other people. In her presence, stay calm. Vent later when you’re away from her as needed though, so you don’t hold in all the bad emotions.
Having to deal with toxic, narcissistic in-laws is tough. I know, I’ve been there. But, with prayer, love, patience & wisdom, you can survive it with your marriage in tact.
I recently read an amazing article entitled “11 Signs Your Personality Is So Intense That It’s Intimidating To Others“. Later on, I thought about the article & realized that many other victims of narcissistic abuse share many if not all of these qualities. It’s no wonder narcissists have issues with us! It’s also proof that we are some pretty amazing people, in my opinion!
#1 in the article is “you’re honest to a fault.” And what a fault honesty is to narcissists! They want victims to be willing to lie to & for them, to pretend they’re perfect & to protect their reputation.
#2, “You’re a problem solver, not one to wallow.” This is another big no no to narcissists, because that means a person like this won’t tolerate abuse indefinitely.
#3, “You aren’t afraid of intimacy.” Many people when they hear the word intimacy think sex, but actually it can be much more beyond sex. Two people who are open with each other, & love, trust & respect each other can have a very intimate relationship with or without sex. If this is something you want, chances are excellent you’ll see behind the narcissist’s mask before he or she is ready for that to happen, which means you won’t be a good victim.
#4, “You’re intense in all that you do.” Intense people don’t settle for things that aren’t intense. They want passion & deep relationships. They don’t want superficial anything, which is yet one more problem for narcissists. They do want superficial relationships. Deeper would mean they might actually have to do some self reflection, which is one of their biggest fears. Even narcissists don’t want to see what’s truly behind their masks.
#5, “You ask a lot of questions.” Narcissists demand blind trust from their victims. That doesn’t come from someone who asks lots of questions. They will trust, but they want to know beyond a doubt they can trust before doing so.
#6, “You refuse to waste your time waiting around for others.” Narcissists MUST be in control of victims, & that even includes when they spend time with people. My mother is perpetually late, unless it’s with someone she wants to impress. Being late is her way of forcing someone to wait on her, so basically she’s in control of that person even if only for a short time.
#7, “You’re like a human lie detector.” Definitely a very, very big turn off for any narcissist. They want to be able to lie to their victims & get away with it indefinitely. Someone who won’t put up with lying is going to call them out on their actions, & we all know narcissists don’t tolerate that well.
#8, “You’re incredibly open minded.” Another problem as far as narcissists are concerned. If you’re open minded, you might *gasp* think for yourself at some point. No victim of any narcissist is allowed to do that! It’s an unpardonable sin to them. Narcissists want their victims to think however the narcissist wants them to think, period. Independent thought may lead to victims realizing that this abuse they’re enduring is wrong, & figure out a way to escape it.
#9, “You always have a clear picture of what you want.” Another problem according to narcissists. If you know what you want, you also have a good sense of boundaries & you know what you aren’t willing to tolerate. This means you may be too tough to manipulate & control for a narcissist.
#10, “You’re a creature of habit.” Another no no for narcissists. Victims need to be pliable so their narcissist can control them. If you have & like your routine, you won’t be open to a lot of change, which is a sign you’re not pliable. This simply will not work for a narcissist!
#11, “You have no interest in shallow relationships.” Narcissists love shallow relationships because they aren’t demanding & don’t require much of them. People who like deeper relationships come across as highly demanding & unreasonable to narcissists. How dare you expect the narcissist to care about your feelings, thoughts, family, job, etc? That means the spotlight would be off the narcissist, & we know that narcissists can’t handle that.
If you share any of the qualities on this list, then enjoy them knowing that they make you unattractive to narcissists, so enjoy these qualities & wear them proudly!
Many survivors of childhood narcissistic abuse grow up showing virtually no anger. Even when they have valid reasons for being angry, they don’t show anger, in particular anger at their abusers.
Rather than get in touch with their anger, they often stuff it deep down inside & make excuses for their abusers. “If only I hadn’t done…” “It’s not his fault, he had a bad childhood.” “She was right, & I’m oversensitive. I always have been.”
Sometimes, abused children grow up depressed. They aren’t necessarily depressed though. They may be incredibly angry about the traumas they endured. Repressed anger can manifest as depression.
Anger really is a scary thing when you’ve never been allowed to express it, & even more when you were shamed for feeling anger by your parent. The only anger that was allowed in the home where I grew up was my mother’s. If I showed even a bit of frustration let alone anger, she shamed me for having “that Bailey temper.” It took me until well into my 30’s before I could express any anger at all, & into my 40’s before I got comfortable with it.
Anger really isn’t a bad thing at all, Dear Reader. I know so many people say it is, Christians in particular, but it truly isn’t. Anger is simply an emotion & emotions are from God. Would He give a bad gift?! Matthew 7:11 “If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!” (NIV)
What is bad about anger is when you do bad things with it. You shouldn’t let your anger motivate you to get revenge, for example. Romans 12:19 “Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written: “It is mine to avenge; I will repay,” says the Lord.” (NIV)
What is good about anger is it can let you know when you’re being mistreated. If someone treats you well, you won’t feel anger, but let that person steal from you for example, & you WILL feel anger!
Anger also can motivate you to make positive changes. No one ever started a diet who was happy with the state of their body. They started it because they were fed up with not wearing a smaller size, getting winded walking up the steps or because they were having health problems.
So how can you learn to feel & express your anger in a healthy way?
You need to accept that you have the right to be angry sometimes. Every single living being has the right to feel anger about some things, & that includes you. Hiding it as a child was no doubt a very useful survival skill, but you’re not that child anymore. You are an adult who has every right to feel it & express it in healthy ways. Remind yourself of that & do so often.
You also need to gain a good understanding of Narcissistic Personality Disorder. It helps in so many ways, but one way that helps you is because you understand projection. A narcissist who shames you for being angry or having a bad temper is simply projecting their bad temper or anger issues onto you. Their cruel comments are absolutely no reflection on you.
You need to recognize that you have the right to be angry at your abuser(s). During the abuse, you obviously couldn’t show your anger. Now that the abuse is done, get angry! Let out all that old anger you stuffed inside you for so long! It’s hurting you physically & emotionally to hold it in so let it out. It’s long overdue! It’ll help to free you of shame, guilt & feeling worthless to do so.
**I’m not saying that by getting angry at your abusive parents you need to confront them. That is entirely your decision. All I am saying is you need to feel & express that anger.**
Everyone has ways to deal with anger that work for them, & you need to do the same. You can journal, get a punching bag, punch pillows, yell when home alone… there are all kinds of different ways you can cope.
Don’t think that if you decide to forgive your abusive parents, the anger will vanish. I made that mistake early in my healing, & thought there was something really wrong with me for still feeling angry with my parents after deciding to forgive them. I didn’t realize that deciding to forgive them wouldn’t make all the anger I felt magically disappear. I believe forgiving & getting rid of anger are two separate things. At least they have been for me. I make the decision to forgive those who have done me wrong immediately, but even so, it takes time to work through & release the anger.
Have you ever noticed how miserable narcissists are? It seems like the higher on the spectrum a narcissist is, the more miserable that person is.
I think this is because narcissists do not have the skills or wisdom to know what to do to improve their situations. In typical narcissist fashion, rather than try, they opt to make others just as miserable as they are or gain attention for their misery.
If you think about the narcissist in your life, how many times were you in a good mood, then that person did or said something that sent your mood rocketing downhill? I bet that has happened a lot. It has with me. Narcissists cannot stand seeing other people happy, especially if they are unhappy. If they can make you unhappy it makes them feel good, because they have power over you. If they can control your emotions & have a strong effect on you, they think they must be powerful. There is also the simple fact that they enjoy causing pain. Making you unhappy is a win/win for the narcissist.
Narcissists enjoy misery so much, they even will cause their own misery. I bet there are many, many narcissists unhappy in their marriage partly due to their own making. Many times, my parents came to me complaining about the other & how miserable they were together. Yet, when I saw simple changes they could have made to improve their situation, they refused to do those things. They would say that was a bad idea, make excuses why it wouldn’t work or say things like, “I do too much already! I’m not doing that for him/her too! He/she is the one who needs to change!”
My late ex mother in-law used to tell me about her own mother, “She’s not happy until she’s miserable!” That seems to be the same case for narcissists. If they’re miserable, they can garnish sympathy, concern & attention. If they appear to be a victim, then they also can gain pity. And, if they can make you as miserable as they are, that’s an added bonus. All of these things provide them with narcissistic supply.
When the narcissist in your life tries to ruin your good mood or trivialize your good news, just remember these things. They are simply looking for narcissistic supply. Do your best not to let them have it by remembering what they are up to. That can help you keep your joy. If they are miserable, that is their problem, not yours.
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I recently added something new to my repertoire, & I’m pretty proud of myself for it. I now have an Amazon Alexa skill for the Echo, Echo Dot, etc. about narcissism. It describes some signs of Narcissistic Personality Disorder. There isn’t much available in the Alexa skills about narcissism, so I thought it might be a good idea to add some to it. I don’t know much about creating these skills, so this first one, being very simple, was a good experiment for me. I am hoping to add more skills about NPD as time goes on. I’m thinking of adding some of my free ebooks maybe? Not sure yet… I’m figuring this out as I go, so this may be my only one. We shall see though! I’ll share when (& if) I add new skills.
If you’d like to check it out, here is the link: https://www.amazon.com/dp/B07P1T5163/ref=sr_1_1?s=digital-skills&ie=UTF8&qid=1551105049&sr=1-1&keywords=narcissism
I am a firm believer in understanding dreams. They can teach us things about ourselves. They can show us areas in which we need more healing. They can help us to process things that are incredibly difficult to process. They also can bring us comfort when we need it most.
Tomorrow, it will be 4 years since I survived Carbon Monoxide Poisoning. It was the most traumatic episode of my life, which considering my life, is really saying something. As a result of that plus the brain damage, I no longer have control over intrusive thoughts, so each year as February 27 approaches, I think a LOT about the day I nearly died. It has improved some, thank God, because the first year anniversary was the most difficult.
For weeks, I couldn’t stop thinking about what happened, & how close I came to death. I was shaken up badly & nothing seemed to comfort me.. until a dream I had on the night of February 26th, 2016. In it, I was at a local library where I worked as a teen. They were closing, so I walked out the door & lo & behold, there was my granddad! I asked what he was doing here. He smiled & said, “I came to show you my new car.” His new car was a pretty burgundy Jeep Rubicon. I said it was nice & he told me to get in, because we were going for a ride. We went four wheeling! We rode over boulders & into deep valleys. It was so much fun! When I later woke from the dream, my mood was drastically improved.
(As a side note, I don’t believe the dead technically visit us in our dreams. I do, however, believe they still care about their loved ones they left behind, & sometimes ask God to tell us something which could mean they show up in our dreams. Or maybe my dream was God knowing I needed something to comfort me, so he gave me a dream of my favorite person. I’m not sure which it was, but in any case, it was great!)
I have had so many other interesting dreams that have proven to be very helpful. For example, for years I had a similar dream about having to repeat high school, & relying on my mother to take me to school, but she got me there late or would yell at me about how she was doing me a big favor (just like how things were when I actually was in high school). The more I began to heal from her abuse though, the less frequent the dreams became. They also started to change, such as I realized I had my own car & didn’t need to rely on her or I remembered I’ve been through high school & had no need to repeat it. Eventually after going no contact with her, the dreams stopped. Those dreams helped me to gauge my healing.
The reason I’m telling you about these dreams is to show you the value that can be had in dreams. I know a lot of people think they have no purpose, but they really do! Acts 2:17 says, “‘And it shall be in the last days,’ says God, ‘That I will pour out My Spirit upon all mankind; And your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, And your young men shall see [divinely prompted] visions, And your old men shall dream [divinely prompted] dreams;” (AMP) I believe this is happening now. Everyone needs to pay attention to their dreams!
The brain constantly processes information, good, bad or indifferent. It continues to do so even when we sleep, which can be what our dreams are. As I mentioned, they have helped me to gauge my healing, which was incredibly helpful. There are other times when I don’t remember many of my dreams, & I firmly believe that is the brain processing things that simply aren’t important enough to remember.
When I don’t know what a dream meant, I pray, asking God to show me what that meant. I also check out a good dream dictionary site I like, www.dreammoods.com. I look up everything I can think of in the dream, such as objects, people, colors, emotions. I write things down & then look at the information I gathered as a whole. Usually then, I understand what the dream was about. I believe God gives me that clarity when I need it. If I don’t understand it, I figure it is simply my brain processing things & I don’t need to know what it’s about.
Dear Reader, I want to encourage you to start paying attention to your dreams. They really can offer you insight, understanding & even comfort.