Many people I talk to mention that they want to start a blog about their experiences & what they have learned about narcissism. Today, I thought I’d write a post for those of you in that position.
Before you get started, you need to think long & hard about this. Writing a blog isn’t hard, but there are things that need to be considered.
As always, I really recommend prayer as the place to start. Ask God to show you if you should or shouldn’t do this. If you believe He wants you to, ask Him guide you on this, to help you to write about whatever He wants you to write about, to reach those He wants you to reach, he courage to do this & anything else you can think of.
Where do things stand with your narcissistic parents? How would you deal with it if they found out about your blog? That could be a very ugly situation since narcissists want their abuse to stay hidden. Are you prepared for whatever might happen if they found out what you write about?
Do you feel strong enough to send your words out into the world? Although writing a blog is pretty much like writing in your private diary, unlike your diary, anyone can read it. Some people may think you’re making things up & invalidate you because of that. There are also “grammar nazis” out there who nitpick posts over silly little things like saying “it’s” over “its”. They can be really irritating since they miss the point of the post just to correct a simple typo. While this isn’t necessarily a big deal, early on in healing, it can really hurt simply because you’re pretty emotionally raw & sensitive.
How often do you think you’ll be able to write posts? I have settled on every other day. It’s often enough to keep my writing in people’s minds, yet not overloading them (or pressuring me!) with my work. Other bloggers write daily posts, yet others write only a couple of times a month. You need to decide on what kind of schedule will work for you.
Have you looked into slander & libel laws in your state? They vary from state to state, so you need to be aware of them in your particular state. They are why when I write, I never mention names & only use general terms. I will mention my parents or my ex husband, not my parents’ or ex’s names or where they live. Giving the people you’re writing about anonymity is a good move, because it shows you aren’t trying to ruin anyone’s reputation. You also can use fake names or change the relationship.
What about a pen name? Is that something you feel strongly about? Then use it! Get creative though. If your name is Mary Smith, don’t use Mary Smythe as a pen name. Use something very different from your real name to protect your identity. Don’t use a family name either since again, it wouldn’t protect your identity well. If you don’t use a pen name, be prepared. Your narcissistic parents & their flying monkeys most likely will read your work at some point. If they’re anything like mine, they’re too nosy not to read it, then try to hurt you with what they read.
Now that you’ve decided you definitely want to write this blog, you need to look into various blogging websites & decided which one to go with. Compare features & see what sounds good to you.
Obviously, I like WordPress. It has a lot of really cool features. I love that I can schedule posts, I don’t have to write & publish posts immediately. In fact, I have almost 6 months of posts scheduled so that way anytime I need a break, I can take it without worrying about my blog falling behind. WordPress also has a sharing feature that I adore. You can connect your social media accounts to your WordPress account, & every time a blog posts publishes, it automatically puts a link on your Facebook, Twitter, Linkedin, etc. pages.
Lastly, you may have a fear like I did when I first started blogging of running out of things to write about. I can assure you, so long as there are narcissists, you’ll have plenty of material to write about! lol
I wish you the absolute best on your new endeavor! xoxo
I’ve noticed an interesting trend with this blog. When I write about my mistakes, failures or struggles, my blog gains more followers & views. My recent post about a bad C-PTSD day gained me quite a few more followers & a lot of views.
I believe this is because people are tired of people who claim they’ve been completely healed from their past, saying all you have to do is pray & believe, & God will deliver you completely from your past. People who are completely delivered from their pain are in the minority, yet they are the ones most in the public eye, it seems.
The problem with this is it makes people feel like failures. It sure did me. I felt like I must not have enough faith or I was praying wrong. Maybe because my experiences weren’t as bad as some other folks’ God wasn’t going to set me free- maybe He thought I was over reacting & needed to realize that.
Then one night while watching TV a few years ago, I saw Josh McDowell doing an interview on TBN’s show, “Praise The Lord.” As a child, he was sexually abused. His story was heartbreaking, but it gave me hope at the same time. Why? Because he admitted that as a grown man in his 50’s or maybe 60’s (my guess.. not sure) he still had issues stemming from that abuse. He said when people touch his shoulder in a certain way, he can’t handle it, because it reminds him of his abuser.
Realizing that this wise, caring, good man of God still had issues from childhood abuse so many years later released the feeling of shame I had. He’s obviously no failure, yet God didn’t wave that magic wand & set him free of all symptoms of the abuse. Maybe, just maybe, that means I’m not a failure either!
Two Scriptures also came into my mind in a new way. Psalm 23:4, “Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.” & Philippians 1:6, “Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ:” I realized that God is truly there with me during all the bad times. Not only the times that I’ve lost a loved one or had a fight with a friend- all of the bad times. He is with me during flashbacks, panic attacks & depressive episodes. He is with me during all of those valley of the shadow of death times, not just some. Also, I realized you learn a lot more going through something than you do if you’re just delivered from it. The things I learn by going through are the things that I’ve been able to share in this blog, & in my books, too, & I believe people are being helped by these things. I’ve received plenty of messages to prove it.
Also, He is the one who showed me I needed healing. He started me on the healing path by gently showing me what was wrong with me & how to heal. So, since God started that “good work,” it seems logical to me, judging by Philippians 1:6, that He will continue working on healing me until Jesus comes back. This tells me there is nothing wrong with continuing to have issues for years after the fact. It’s normal!
These revelations gave me a new heart for how I write. Rather than constantly trying to encourage or teach readers what I have learned, I felt it would be a good idea to share my mistakes & struggles, too, to let my readers know that they aren’t alone. Everyone who has been through narcissistic abuse struggles to some degree. It’s ok! God is with them & helping them to heal.
So, Dear Reader, this is my promise to you- to be real, not only encouraging or educational. I’ll also let you know that I understand your struggles, because I struggle too, every single day. And, there is nothing wrong with you or your faith if God hasn’t miraculously delivered you. There are plenty of us in that same valley, so at least you aren’t alone!
Since I began writing about narcissism, surviving narcissistic abuse & the awful effects on its victims, some people have told me I need to focus on writing about lighter, more pleasant topics. It’s too negative. People need to think about positive things, not just the negative. I only write about what I do because I’m wallowing in the past. I need to forget it & move on.
The truth is, I do agree with the fact that people need to focus on positive things, not just the negative. That is all I agree with in the above statements however.
In all honesty, writing about narcissism isn’t easy. I’m often learning something new, & it can be depressing just how pervasive narcissism & narcissistic abuse are. I get tired of it all. It’s a very emotionally draining topic & can be triggering for my C-PTSD. I have to take time to deliberately refuse to focus on it to help me not to get mired down in the depressing negativity that is narcissism.
That being said, I don’t plan to quit anytime soon.
For one thing, I believe God wants me to write about this topic. He has given me the ability to write & also to understand quite a lot about narcissism. Not that I know everything on the topic of course- I don’t think anyone does- but I do know a lot. My personal experiences have taught me a great deal as well as things I have read.
For another thing, when someone thanks me for teaching them something they’ve been searching for an answer for, it is incredibly rewarding.
It’s also rewarding to let people know they aren’t alone. Since narcissistic abuse makes its victims feel so alone, learning they aren’t is a really big deal!
There is nothing more rewarding than knowing you helped to improve someone’s life. That alone makes it all worth while!
And, in all honesty, writing helps me as well. I’m finally validated! Seeing things in writing somehow helps me to realize that what happened to me was real, & it was terrible. It makes it more real than just remembering things, probably since I dissociated so much as a child. It also helps validate me when people believe me & offer support & understanding. That almost never happened until I started writing. So please forgive my selfish motive but I need this validation!
If you are considering writing about your experiences with narcissistic abuse, just know it won’t be easy, but it will be worth it!
Remember that if you opt to write about it, narcissism is a terribly negative topic. You will need to counter the negativity with positive. Indulge in things you enjoy often, such as a favorite hobby.
Do nice things for yourself to reward yourself after writing. Even a short blog post like this one can be surprisingly draining sometimes- reward yourself for putting forth the effort.
Make time where you flatly refuse to think about NPD or anything related to it. Deliberately focus on something else. Anything else.
If you opt to write a blog, write posts in advance & schedule them to publish without your assistance. That way, if you feel inspired, you can write several posts at once, or if you feel uninspired, you can take a break. Your blog will post anyway. I have a lot of posts ready to go- over 3 months into the future.
Don’t feel bad for taking frequent breaks. It’s good for your mental health!
If you choose to write a book, be forewarned- that is much more challenging than writing in a blog. Blog posts are usually short which makes them easier to handle. Writing a full book, however is different. Chances are, you’ll go on a bender & end up writing a lot in one sitting, probably often, which will exhaust you. You may plan to write for only half an hour but end up spending your afternoon in front of the computer. Trust me on this one- been there, done that! Writing a book about narcissism, especially if it is about your personal experiences, is an emotional roller coaster.
So if you are considering writing about narcissism, I strongly urge you to pray about it. Ask God if this is the route He wants you to take, how He wants you to write (blog, books, etc) & if it is, to enable you to do it. Ask for strength, courage & wisdom, because you will need all three & more.
Lately, I’ve been thinking. (Scary huh?? lol)
I really would like to be able to expand the topics I write about. In all honesty, I’m tired of thinking so much about narcissism. Not that I want to quit writing about it entirely of course- I’d just like to talk about other things sometimes too. Be a bit more diverse
I’ve asked God to guide my writing. I ask God to show me what to write about (admittedly, probably not as often as I should..) which is where my blog & book subject matters come from. I’m going to be praying more about this topic though & would appreciate your prayers as well. I’m sure this urge to cover other topics isn’t only me- it’s God guiding me, probably preparing me for something else that is on its way.
I’ve started a little.. I’ve decided once my current book on recovering from narcissistic abuse is done, my next book project will be finishing the fiction book I started a few years ago. That book is maybe one third done..it’s time to finish it.
I also added some information about my experiences with carbon monoxide poisoning on my website. I’ve read a lot about it since I went through it last February, & what has struck me as truly sad is how many others who have been through it feel so isolated. People don’t seem to grasp just how serious & horrible it is to live with the disruptive symptoms. Writing about it is my attempt to help these people feel less alone, & less crazy. It also seems to have helped me a little to write out my experiences. (Bonus for me!) If you know someone who has suffered through carbon monoxide poisoning or you would care to read it, then click this link: http://cynthiabaileyrug.com/Carbon-Monoxide-Poisoning.php
Maybe I could write some about natural/herbal things. I know many people associate such things with casting spells & such, but I don’t. I believe God created herbs & plants with the properties they have for a reason & for our use. Why shouldn’t we benefit from them? I love herbal remedies & beauty recipes. I’d love to share what I know as well as learn from others.
If there are other topics you would like me to write about, I’m open to suggestions. I may not use them, it will depend on what I believe God wants me to do, so please don’t be offended if I don’t write about what you suggest. Anyway feel free to leave your suggestions in the comments of this post, or email me at: CynthiaBaileyRug@aol.com I look forward to hearing from you! 🙂
Dear Readers, I just wanted to let you know that although I’ve been trying to post daily, I’m going to have to reduce posting to every other day, at least for now. I’ve realized posting daily is too stressful for me. The last six months or so of my life have been over the top chaotic, & even though things are calming down, I’m still feeling super anxious. Naturally that anxiety makes the C-PTSD flare up. (Yay me.. not.) So, I need to start practicing what I preach & taking better care of my mental health. One way to do that is to reduce stress so unfortunately that means reducing blog posts a bit. I’m sorry about this, & hope it isn’t permanent. I also appreciate your understanding.
As always, please feel free to suggest any topics you might like me to write about in this blog.. I’m always up for suggestions. You can comment on this post or email me anytime at CynthiaBaileyRug@aol.com
Also, if you wish to meet others who have survived narcissistic parents, you can go to my private forum at: http://cynthiasforum.boards.net/ or you can join my closed facebook group at: https://www.facebook.com/groups/FansOfCynthiaBaileyRug/ Both have privacy settings in place, so what you stay remains within the confines of the forum or group, & only other members can see your comments.
A Scripture popped into my mind today…
1 Peter 4:8 “Most important of all, continue to show deep love for each other, for love covers a multitude of sins.” (NLT)
Matthew 18:15-17 “If your brother wrongs you, go and show him his fault, between you and him privately. If he listens to you, you have won back your brother.
16 But if he does not listen, take along with you one or two others, so that every word may be confirmed and upheld by the testimony of two or three witnesses.
17 If he pays no attention to them [refusing to listen and obey], tell it to the church; and if he refuses to listen even to the church, let him be to you as a pagan and a tax collector.” (AMP)
These verses tell me that it is acceptable to discuss when someone has wronged or even abused you. In fact, I think it is necessary to discuss narcissism in particular, because although more people are becoming aware of the term Narcissistic Personality Disorder, very few people truly understand it.
If you discuss what you have experienced at the hands of a narcissist, whether it be a parent, spouse, relative or friend, you help to make other people aware of the signs of a narcissist, the dangers of being involved with one, or even how to set boundaries with one. These are things everybody needs to know, especially since narcissism is so prevalent in society these days!
You can help to raise awareness of narcissistic abuse in many ways. You can share your experiences & knowledge in a blog, post in social media, or join mental health forums. Ask God if He would have you to do something, & how He would like you to go about it. Your story can help to change someone’s life!
Don’t misunderstand me, though. I’m not saying that is ALL that you need to discuss. If your primary conversation consists of stories of the abuse you endured at the hands of a narcissistic abuser, people will be turned off. They will tire of hearing the same complaints repeatedly, or your conversations being only about one topic. Also, it’s unhealthy to focus on such heavy topics non stop. Your brain needs to relax from hard work like your body does. Give it a break sometimes, & focus on lighter matters. Watch funny movies, read good books or participate in a hobby you enjoy.
I was talking with my husband the other night about my work. I mentioned how other teachings on narcissism I read sometimes just don’t sit well with me even if I normally agree 100% with the author’s thoughts, & how I do my best to be sure what I say can be backed up in the Bible. One thing came to mind during this conversation that has been in the back of my mind for years now,since before I started writing, in fact..
I was watching Joyce Meyer preaching on TV one day. She said she’d been asking God for more & more people to reach & to be able to help. In response to her prayer, God told her that as many people as she can help, she can also hurt, so be careful. i thought this is incredibly wise!
So many people find someone whose teachings or preaching they like. They relate to much of what that person has to say, & they almost blindly follow anything that person says. This is NOT wise to do, however! Just because you identify with this person’s preaching or teaching, doesn’t mean this person is always right! All human beings make a mistake sometimes!
I do my level best in my blog, on my website, in my books & anything I write to make sure what I say can be verified by the Bible. Yet, even so, I’m human. I’m sure I’ve made mistakes sometimes & will continue to make mistakes. I just try my best to keep those mistakes to a minimum.
I have been blessed with some wonderful, caring, intelligent, empathetic fans who have sent me wonderful messages of support & thanking me for all I write. It’s amazing! I love those messages. But, I also want you to be sure that if you follow my writing, don’t do so blindly! If something doesn’t sound right to you, look it up. Pray about it. Like I said, I do my best not to make mistakes, but sometimes I just might make them anyway! & if you find something I’ve written is wrong, feel free to let me know your thoughts. I am very aware of what Joyce Meyer has said, that as many people as I can help, I can also hurt, & hurting people is the absolute last thing I want to do.
Here is the link… 🙂
Good morning, Dear Readers!
Today I reached 50 followers on this blog! FIFTY! YAY! Granted, many blogs have many more followers, I’m still very happy. It is so rewarding to know that I can help people in some way. It is an awesome responsibility, because I am well aware that just as many people as I can help, I can hurt. But, I believe God is enabling me to help people rather than hurt them. And, I thank every single one of you who has taken the time to email me privately to let me know that something I have written has helped you.
Thank you everyone for following my blog & reading my work. I love you & may God bless you! 🙂
Good afternoon, Dear Readers!
I just thought I would let you know I made some changes to this blog today.. I added various categories to make posts easier to find. I hope you enjoy the changes. 🙂
Have a wonderful weekend, everyone!
Good morning, Dear Readers!
I just wanted to let you know that I am changing my website host company. I’ve done it before, & frankly, I stink at the transfer process. There is a reason God made me a writer instead of a webmaster! Website things baffle me like few other things. Anyway, I just wanted to let you know about this, because in the next few days, my site may vanish for a little while, then reappear. Hopefully that time won’t last long. The website still will be at:
Also, my blog will not be affected, & neither will my online bookstore which can be found at:
I also am thinking of taking a few days away from the blog. Been a rough couple of days, & need some down time to regroup.
Thank you for your patience, Dear Readers. I love you & am praying for you. 🙂 God bless you!
I just wanted to thank my new followers on my blog & those who have liked my posts lately. Thank you so much everyone for your encouragement! God bless you!