July 31, 2022 · 6:30 AM
If you are interested in psychology like me, then I would really like to recommend the Netflix series “Mindhunter”. It’s a fictional series based on how the science of criminal profiling came into existence. The FBI team attempts to learn about criminal profiling. Two male detectives are the main focus of the show. They interview various serial killers in an attempt to understand why they did the things they did. The plot is fascinating & the acting is very good! My husband, who usually isn’t particularly interested in crime shows loves “Mindhunter” as much as me if this tells you just how good it is!
Anyway the reason I’m mentioning this is there was a fantastic quote on the show by Agent Ford, one of the two male detectives I mentioned earlier. Ford has excellent instincts & listens closely to them. In one episode, he let someone talk him into something other than listening to his instincts. It turned out his instincts were right on, as usual. He was upset, naturally & said the most interesting thing.. “The only mistake I ever made was doubting myself.”
When a person is subjected to narcissistic abuse, doubting one’s self becomes the norm. I always had pretty strong instincts, but learned early in life to ignore them due to the narcissistic abuse. I was sure I was wrong because I believed I was ignorant of so much, too judgmental, & even just plain stupid. This is so typical of the mentality of victims of narcissistic abuse, but that doesn’t mean it’s correct.
Whatever a narcissist has told you about yourself, I want to encourage you today to question it. Logically, as if you were an outsider looking at the situation rather than someone directly involved in the situation. If you do this, chances are excellent that you will realize just how wrong the narcissist was about you.
I also want to encourage you to pay attention to your instincts. I realize some folks are naturally more in tune with theirs than others due to differences in their personalities, so some of you may not be overly interested in doing this. Please consider giving it a try though. I firmly believe the reason instincts are so accurate is because they are the Holy Spirit guiding us. Doesn’t that make them worth listening to?
To learn to trust your instincts doesn’t happen overnight, but it can happen. Pay attention to what they tell you. When you feel strongly, do what you feel your instincts are leading you to do. Early on when doing this, you are going to make some mistakes along the way, but don’t give up! The more you listen to your instincts, the more in tune with them you will become. And, the more you do this, the less mistakes you will make. That means the more you will learn to trust them.
Being in tune with your instincts is a wonderful thing in many ways. You can avoid many problems by trusting them. You also will learn to avoid toxic people by trusting them. Your instincts pick up on subtle cues to people & situations that the cognizant mind doesn’t notice. Instincts also put pieces of the puzzle together which help you to learn what you should or shouldn’t do, what is good or bad for you & even what people it is best for you to avoid. Don’t you think it’s worth investing the time in fine tuning this skill to help you improve your life?
Filed under Christian Topics and Prayers, Mental Health
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December 27, 2016 · 7:30 AM
I had a very interesting experience the other night. I had a dream about my husband’s parents. Suddenly the dream changed a bit & it was just his mother & I. She hugged me & said she was sorry for everything she did to me.
When I woke up, I was WIDE awake, so I figured I might as well utilize the time & ask God what the heck that was about. When she was alive, she seemed to have no guilt for treating me badly, so I thought maybe this was some sort of weird wishful thinking on my part. No. Not even close.
God said she knows I pay attention to my dreams so she wanted me to dream what I did. He also said that she felt very bad for being so awful to me. She was so bad to me because of her own insecurities (typical narcissistic behavior). She thinks I “made a man” out of my husband.
This blew me away. Partly because my mother in-law never accepted any responsibility for anything she did to me, let alone apologized so I just assumed it’d be the same after her death. Also partly because this sort of thing happened with my ex husband’s mother as well. We got along great until my ex & I moved in with his parents. Then when I divorced him, naturally she was on his side & I became the scourge of the earth. But after she passed in 2010, suddenly she started appearing in my dreams on a pretty regular basis. She once said she understood why I wanted a divorce & another time, said she was proud of me for helping people with my writing. In my dreams even if she doesn’t speak, she’s always smiling at me & seems proud of me.
My point in sharing all of this is to show you just how important dreams can be. They truly are worth paying attention to! You can learn a great deal about yourself through your dreams, since they are almost always about the dreamer. They can reveal areas in which you need healing or need to change your thinking or behavior. Or, they can be Heaven sent messages like my dreams about my mothers in-law. In any case, dreams are very important!!
There also will be plenty of dreams you don’t remember or only remember snippets of. That can be frustrating when you’re trying to understand your dreams, I know, but even those have a purpose. I asked God about them at one point because I have so many like that. He said the brain constantly processes information- good, bad or indifferent. Those dreams you don’t remember are simply that, your brain processing things. They aren’t important.
If you want to start learning from your dreams, then start by praying. Ask God to help you to understand them better & to remember the important ones. Keep a written record of them too, as seeing them all together with the dates of them can help reveal a lot about your life. It’s also a good idea to use a dream dictionary. I use one online, http://www.DreamMoods.com I write down all the things about my dream I can remember, then look up what those things mean on the website. I write down what the site says about each thing, then read over the entire thing. If I don’t understand, I ask God to help me figure it out, which He does. Sometimes I don’t even make it that far- as soon as I wake up, He tells me what the dream meant, but that doesn’t happen very often. In any case though, dreams can be utterly fascinating & helpful, so please consider paying more attention to yours!
Filed under Abuse and the Healing Journey, Christian Topics and Prayers, Mental Health
Tagged as dream, dreams, emotional, healing, health, insight, instincts, mental, wisdom
November 5, 2016 · 7:30 AM
I am a firm believer in trusting your instincts. Admittedly, growing up with narcissistic parents, you learn early in life not to do so, I certainly did, but as an adult, you need to learn to trust them. Your intuition won’t steer you wrong! I believe it’s the Holy Spirit guiding us gently, not some weird psychic power, & the Holy Spirit needs to be acknowledged! Learning to listen to your instincts can help you in so many ways & make your life much easier.
For months now, I have been feeling it’s time to go no contact with my narcissistic parents. After our big argument last May, I realized I was done with them. But, I haven’t been able to say the words. Something in me was making it impossible to take that step. Why was simply beyond me. I had gone no contact with my mother in 2001 for 7 years, so what was the problem? I was sure since I have done it before, I could do it again. But something in me didn’t feel right about taking that step this time, & frankly, it hasn’t for a long time in spite of wanting to. That is why I went low contact- it was as close as I felt able to go to no contact. Honestly, it was bugging me pretty badly. I felt like I must look like a hypocrite to my readers. I encourage people who want to go no contact to take that step, but here I was, not doing it. What was wrong with me?!
I prayed again recently about it, & God gave me my answer!
My parents are currently in their late 70’s. My father was diagnosed with Alzheimer’s a couple of years ago & has a host of other serious health problems. My mother is healthy but has back problems so she needs a lot of help on a daily basis. If I went no contact at this point, it would NOT go well for me. The situation would be viewed as me abandoning my elderly, helpless parents in their time of need rather than me protecting myself from abusive people. My parents would go into the victim role. It’d be very easy to lose what little family I have left as most haven’t seen my parents’ true colors. Maybe they would turn into flying monkeys which is something I really do NOT want to deal with. I would also feel incredibly guilty. Even just wanting to take the step has made me feel guilty, so I’m sure it would be magnified if I actually did it, in spite of knowing it’s in the best interest of my physical & mental health. Maybe I wouldn’t be able to cope with that guilt.
God was quite adamant with me during this prayer about not being the one to initiate no contact, just keep my distance & only deal with my parents if I feel able. (Well, I should say my father since my mother still hasn’t spoken to me since the night of our fight.) My behavior will push them away naturally. I have no more trouble calling them out on bad, hurtful, abusive behavior (which is what started the fight) or setting boundaries. My parents can’t handle such things from me, so this has been pushing them away for a while now, but even more since that fight.
My point in all of this is I am so grateful I listened to my instincts rather than outsiders or even my own logic telling me to go no contact. If I did that, just look at the problems I could be facing right now! I thank God for guiding me! Doing things His way definitely will make my life much easier.
Please learn from me on this topic & trust your instincts too! They will not lead you wrong, even when you don’t understand what the plan is. Ask God to help you to learn to trust your instincts, to guide your words & your actions & to keep you in His perfect will for your life. You will be very blessed by doing so!
Filed under Abuse and the Healing Journey, Christian Topics and Prayers, Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Mental Health
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