Lately, I’ve been busy. Not writing the usual books but taking a bit of a breather from that to create some cross stitch patterns. Since I’m not the only one who needs a break from the draining topic of narcissism, I thought I’d share the link to them here.
Cross Stitch Patterns
I also have some crochet patterns available on my site as well. They are on this link.
I hope those of you reading this will like them. I also hope that even if you aren’t into crafts, you’ll remember that mental health breaks are very important. PLEASE take some time where you deliberately do NOT think about narcissism or your healing from narcissistic abuse. Such a draining topic requires plenty of rest & distraction to prevent you from burning out.
Aside from the hours of thinking & talking about NPD I do daily, there has been a LOT going on in my life the last few years. This exacerbates my mental & physical health problems. I realized recently this is ridiculous… I need a break!
I have blog posts & YouTube videos scheduled well ahead of time so I can take time off from those things. But I needed to do more. This brought me to the idea of spending more time crafting since it relaxes me so much. Working on a crafty project also takes my focus so I don’t think about NPD at all.
The crafting thought gave me another idea… add some craft patterns on my website!
Clearly I’m not the only person who needs frequent breaks. Anyone who is healing from narcissistic abuse naturally spends a lot of time reading & thinking about it, which can take a mental & physical toll. If you aren’t doing that, then please start! Whatever helps you to relax & think about something more pleasant than narcissism isn’t important, so long as you do it.
If you’re not sure what to do, why not try something creative? Guys, you need to do this too. There are all kinds of creative ideas out there! I focus on knitting, crochet & cross stitch, but there are about a zillion other things you can do. Draw, paint, woodworking, model building, RC cars or airplanes, sculpting… possibilities are endless!
If you’re interested in knitting, crochet or cross stitch like me, then please check out the patterns I’ve made & put on my website. I’ll be adding more over time, but there are a few patterns on there already that I hope you’ll like. The link directly to those patterns is below:
Good morning, Dear Readers!
I was thinking about trying to write something positive & encouraging today, & I couldn’t come up with anything. Why? Honestly, I’m in a pretty lousy mood. There have been a lot of negative things going on in my life lately, & all the things I’m learning for the new book are a lot to take in. I’m learning about so many behaviors that are abusive, that I never thought were abusive. I’m seeing clearly just how many people have abused me during my life, even people I never thought of as abusive. It’s really a lot to process! Plus, the heat & bright sun of the summer tends to depress me anyway. I’m so NOT a summer gal! Give me autumn or winter instead, please!
This all makes it hard for me to be positive & encouraging right now. I was starting to feel guilty about that (only adding to my lovely mood), & prayed. God immediately showed me something. People do not need positivity & encouragement only. They need genuine people, which is what I am. While it’s good to be positive, people also need to see that sometimes, you don’t feel positive, & that is ok. Everyone has off days. Sometimes, if people see you as only positive, they feel bad about themselves when they have an off day or two. They feel as if they’re sinning, not measuring up or failing.
We all have off days, sometimes several in a row, & that is OK! Take it easy & practice good self-care on those days. As for me, I am going to take off this week, & not work on the new book. I’m going to relax as much as possible & help myself to feel better soon.
Growing up, my mother told me I was lazy more times than I can count. I never questioned this until I was almost forty years old- I simply believed I was lazy & pretty useless. If I wasn’t being productive, I felt guilty. Even if I was sick or injured, that was no excuse for not doing something useful. Society gives that same message, which helped cement that belief in me.
I still battle this dysfunctional mindset, but I’m getting better. I’m learning from my cats- cats make no apologies for relaxing or enjoying a sun puddle. They take care of themselves, & don’t feel a hint of guilt for it. Neither do wolves- my other favorite animal. When people think of wolves, they think of fierce hunters, however wolves also know how to have fun. They are wildly playful animals. They relax & have fun with each other & their cubs. Why doesn’t anyone insult wolves & cats for being lazy, I wonder, yet say it about people who aren’t busy 24/7?
I think people need to get a better understanding of what it truly means to be lazy. Goofing off when you have things to do, taking days off work for no good reason constantly or living in filth instead of cleaning your home are all examples of laziness. However, relaxing after a hard day at work isn’t lazy. Neither is spending the day in bed when you have the flu. And, if you have mental health problems like me, sometimes you need to take a day to do nothing to keep yourself from getting depressed or anxious. Sometimes you need them even if you don’t have mental health problems, actually. Those days are vital, & there is nothing wrong with them.
I believe it’s important to take time to relax, with no computer or cell phone, & accept it as a good thing, like our animal friends do. Look how happy cats & wolves are. They take time to enjoy their lives, without guilt or shame. We could do well to follow their example!