Most people are very uncomfortable around someone with obvious scars. They stare at the person who has scars from surviving a house fire or they avoid even making simple eye contact with the person. Some especially rude people ask this person what happened while wearing an expression of sheer disgust on their face. Experiences like this make the person with the scars feel ashamed of how they look. This sort of experience also can happen to someone who wears their scars inside as a result of surviving abuse.
So many people who live with ongoing mental health struggles such as Complex PTSD, PTSD, anxiety & depression as a result of being abused are shamed. Some people mock these mental disorders while others deny their existence, which further contributes to the shame most abuse victims feel on some level for being abused. This behavior is incredibly cruel but also foolish.
Everyone has scars to some degree. Those scars shouldn’t be a source of shame. Scars tell a story of things you have experienced.
Some scars show a woman has birthed healthy children.
Some scars show what happened to a soldier who bravely threw himself in harm’s way to protect his fellow soldiers.
Some scars show that a fireman was injured while rescuing someone from a burning building on the verge of collapse.
Some scars show the vet assistant’s job involves a lot more physical pain than most people think because scared animals scratch & bite.
Some scars even show that a person was abused by someone they thought they could trust, someone they thought loved them & would be good to them.
The one thing all scars have in common is that they tell a story of something that could have destroyed a person yet they didn’t. They tell a story of survival, strength & bravery.
If you have survived abuse & feel your story isn’t somehow good or worthy like the people in the examples I provided, I want you to know that you are wrong. Having a mental disorder or even disorders doesn’t mean you are weak, stupid, or a failure. Far from it! It means you survived something that could have destroyed you. Narcissists do their level best to destroy their victims in every possible way, yet you survived that! Of course you have some issues as a result of the abuse, because that is only normal. Rather than be ashamed of those issues, why not be proud of the fact you survived what many people don’t? Then, as if surviving isn’t enough, here you are, not only coping with those issues but learning, growing, healing & helping others who have experienced what you have. You should be so proud of yourself for how far you have come!!
Rather than be ashamed of your scars & try to hide them, I would like to suggest that you to accept them without judgment as reminders of your strength & courage! Hold your head high & be proud of the person you are!