The Shadow Of Ongoing Trauma – Common Emotional Symptoms

When someone has experienced ongoing trauma, the effects are far reaching & deeply impactful.  Trauma affects our mind & body. Today, we will explore some of the common emotional symptoms that victims of abuse may experience after trauma.

Each individual’s experience with trauma is unique, & not everyone will exhibit the same symptoms.  They also may vary in intensity & duration. 

Anxiety is a common emotional symptom experienced by abuse victims.  It manifests as a persistent feeling of unease, worry, & apprehension.  Victims may find themselves constantly on edge, anticipating danger & feeling a sense of impending doom.  This heightened state of anxiety is exhausting, making it difficult to relax.  Simple tasks like going to the grocery store or attending social gatherings can become overwhelming.  Anxiety also often leads to physical symptoms such as rapid heartbeat, shortness of breath, & trembling.  It’s important to recognize that anxiety is not a choice or a sign of weakness; it is a natural response to trauma.

Hyper vigilance is another emotional symptom that abuse victims often experience.  It involves an extreme state of heightened awareness, constant scanning for potential threats, being constantly on guard, unable to let one’s guard down.  This hyper vigilance stems from the need to protect oneself after enduring traumatic experiences & having to anticipate the ever changing moods of narcissists.  It manifests in various ways, such as being easily startled, having difficulty concentrating, or experiencing intrusive thoughts & memories related to the trauma.  Victims struggle to trust others & may have a heightened startle response to unexpected noises or movements. 

Depression is a common emotional symptom that often accompanies ongoing trauma.  It involves a profound sense of sadness, emptiness, & hopelessness.  Victims lose interest in activities they once enjoyed & find it challenging to experience pleasure or joy.  Depression can also manifest physically, with survivors experiencing aches, pains, & a general sense of malaise.  Depression can be debilitating, affecting all aspects of a person’s life.

One of the most difficult challenges victims face is the feeling of disconnection from others.  They feel as though they are a burden to others. 

Additionally, victims often experience changes in sleep patterns.  They may have difficulty falling asleep or staying asleep, leading to fatigue & a lack of energy. 

Irritability is a common emotional symptom experienced & can manifest as heightened sensitivity, anger, & frustration.  Frequently, even minor annoyances or inconveniences trigger intense reactions.  Victims may have a short fuse & struggle to control their anger or irritation.  Irritability often stems from being in a constant state of tension & hyper-vigilance.  The nervous system is on high alert, making them more prone to overreacting to perceived threats. 

Moreover, victims may direct their anger & frustration towards themselves, blaming themselves for the trauma or for their perceived inability to move on.  This misdirected anger further damages their self esteem & hinders their healing.  It’s important to have patience & compassion with victims, recognizing that their irritability is a symptom rather than a reflection of their character.

Anger is closely related to irritability, & can manifest as a deep-seated rage, a simmering resentment, or explosive outbursts.  Victims may feel angry at their abusers, at themselves for not being able to prevent the trauma, or at the world for allowing such pain to exist.  It’s not a sin but a natural response to the injustices & violations victims endure.  It serves as a protective mechanism, helping people to recognize problems, assert boundaries & reclaim their power.  However, unprocessed anger can become destructive, both to victims & those close to them.

The emotional symptoms victims experience after trauma are a testament to the profound impact abuse can have on one’s psyche.  By shedding light on these common emotional symptoms, we can create a more compassionate society.  It is our collective responsibility to provide victims with the resources & support they need to heal & rebuild their lives, & to create a world where victims are treated with love rather than ignorance.

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16 responses to “The Shadow Of Ongoing Trauma – Common Emotional Symptoms

  1. Jade

    Thanks for these reminders, Cynthia. Iyll

    I’ve been meaning to post again after our chat about not having obvious SG / GC roles in my family. I read something recently that the eldest child is often the object of the narcissistic focus (I think that’s the word) or if a child is an only child (I know we talked about you being given multiple roles).

    I’m the eldest and I’m beginning to realise I seem to have had more of a focus on me in terms of these dynamics, than my siblings. I also think multiple roles too. I think being sensitive and introspective too, I seem to be the only one that sees / acknowledges the dynamics. It helped me understand my situation better.

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    • Jade

      I didn’t mean to write lyll! 🤣

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    • You’re quite welcome!

      Any child can be the main focus of the abuse, I believe. There doesn’t seem to be (from what I have seen anyway) a steadfast rule that the oldest is a certain role, middle another & youngest yet another. But, there are roles, that’s for sure & they are subject to change at any time including adding roles. Just not sure exactly how parents decide those roles so early! How can you tell if a baby will be a sensitive or rebelious child, know what I mean?

      Being sensitive & introspective definitely gives an advantage when it comes to seeing the dynamics! I’m glad you are able to!!

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      • Jade

        Yes, I think it hasn’t been easy for any of us but I’m beginning to see there’s been more focus on me in a way, which might explain a lot .. maybe a coincidence that I’m the oldest too. My mom actually said she could tell I was “compliant” early on (I could tell she liked it in that it was less friction for her (maybe understandable but when we’re talking about these dynamics its a recipe for disaster for the child! I see now, she didn’t try to help me with boundaries or assertiveness and used my cooperative nature against me).

        However she said my sister was very assertive and direct, even when very little! I’m getting my head around the different experience I’ve had (and continue to have) from my siblings. I think what’s sad is, using your child’s personality for your ends. 😕 But good to process! I appreciate being able to chew the cud, as always Cynthia!

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        • Jade

          yes, re sensitivity .. the more I heal, the more I see it’s a superpower but it also made things much harder I believe, in that environment.

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        • Sounds like it was mor about you being “compliant.” I shouldn’t be surprised at her recognizing that early on.. narcissists are amazing at reading people (too bad they don’t use that skill for good causes, like solving crimes, finding missing kids, etc). I wonder if they do things early in their children’s lives to test to see how compliant, sensitive, easily duped, etc. they are… it would make sense (from their perspective) to do that.

          Of course she didn’t try to help you with those things. The more you’re convinced having people treat you like dirt is normal, the more you’ll tolerate. Best to train you to tolerate abuse from everyone, know what I mean? My mother was the same way. If anything ever went wrong in a relationship, it was my fault. “To have a friend, you have to be a friend.” was one of her favorite sayings.

          Did she label your sister as a problem child? Assertive kids are a bad thing to a narcissistic parent after all.. how dare they talk back & have boundaries.

          It’s disgusting using your child’s natural personality for your own ends. Yet, they have no problem doing it!

          My pleasure! ❤ Glad to help!!

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          • Jade

            Yes, I agree. She has good cognitive empathy for sure!

            I know. I think it’s processing how you accept that treatment as normal, in every area of life, isn’t it? Yep, she didn’t like it when I started standing up to “friends” in my adulthood lol.. I think she knew her days of having the wool pulled over my eyes, were numbered! Your mum’s quote grr !!! 🙄 it’s never the other party that’s to blame, that’s for sure.. lol!

            My sister was and is kind of labelled but somehow as I mentioned previously, we sort of did and didn’t have obvious “roles” and my parents are very covert. A lot (but not all I’m realising) think we’re a happy family.. including some members of it. I’m still sorting through things but I think even now, my sister can tell them what to do, to a degree, but my conclusion is she’s direct about her needs whereas they will manipulate underhandedly (including her)…

            It is all mindbogglingly isn’t it.l? I think mom’s unaware of her nature and has convinced herself she’s the victim in me being VVVVLC but the skulduggery and slight of hand is clear as day now the penny’s dropped.

            Thank you! ❤️

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            • Yes it is. The more it’s normalized, the better. They absolutely hate when we realize how abnormal abuse is. Your mother proved it by hating when you stood up to your friends. Like you said, she realized her days were numbered!

              Lots of gggrrr with my mother. I’ve never been the perfect friend but even so, I was NOT always the problem. Yet, thanks to her I thought I was even into early adulthood.

              Covert is the absolute worst… not that overts are great, but I feel coverts are worse because they are so subtle & sneaky! They also come across innocent much of the time, so for a kind person, they will wonder if they’re overreacting, did the person really mean to say/do that, etc. Beyond frustrating!

              Utterly mind boggling!!

              No doubt she has convinced herself she is your victim. Coverts are always innocent victims, don’t you know.. <eyerolls>

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              • Jade

                Yeh. It’s funny how those moments come back to you later and you realise they never had your back.

                None of us are perfect, of course. But I do think that Ns and people who think nothing is their fault, luurve the people who take too much responsibility.. very handy! Yes, another legacy for you from your mom, unfortunately.

                Yup, coverts are tricky! They do a good job at looking like perfect angels whilst stabbing you in the back.

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                • It really is. Hurtful too.

                  They absolutely do love people who take on too much responsibility! Someone to be responsible for keeping them happy, building their self esteem, etc etc etc.

                  The legacy narcissists leave is quite astounding… that was just a small portion of it.

                  They sure do. The ones I’ve known? Very few people ever recognized them for what they really were. Just believed they were these lovely, wonderful people & I was wrong for not adoring them. Sheesh…

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                  • Jade

                    Yup. Absolutely.. a one way street towards them !!

                    I can’t imagine all the “legacy’s” you’ve received, Cynthia. I am sorry. 🥺

                    I think a lot of people assume everyone is like them (if they’re not an N) but I also think there’s a lot of enabling / N type people who’d rather have an easy life than face the truth about someone they know even if they’re hurting other people they also know. Were all aware that you don’t ever really know what someone is like behind closed doors but that goes out the window on these types of situations. I’m glad society is wising up more now but it’s horrible that the victims are blamed rather than the perpetrators!!

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                    • Yes! & do they love that one way traffic!

                      Thank you. I appreciate the kindness, Jade ❤

                      Those people are too cowardly to face truth. They like whatever they get from enabling the narcissist. Could be favor or gifts from the narcissist, or simply being able to remain in their dysfunctional bubble where nothing is bad & the narcissist is a great person. But, make no mistake, they do get something from enabling!

                      It really is horrible & it infuriates me to no end that victims are blamed instead of perpetrators! Victims also are the ones who are supposed to do all the work – tolerate the abuse, understand why the abuser hurt them, forgive the abuser, be open to trusting them/reconciling… it really makes me sick. Why don’t many people say to abusers “What you did was wrong & you need to stop hurting people!”? That is what needs to be said & often & by a whole lot of people!! <stepping off soapbox now.. lol>

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                    • Jade

                      I completely agree with everything you’ve said and it does need to be said, for sure!!! 💯 It’s the only way for this to change.

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                    • Thank you! It really does need to be said! & people really need to listen to it too!

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