I’ve been reading a lot lately about people who have a disease or mental illness, who have the handicapped plates on their car receiving nasty notes on their car that say awful things like “You don’t look sick. Shame on you for using that parking place when someone who is really sick needs it!” Or, others who have problems that don’t show outward signs are faced with family members & friends who don’t believe they’re actually sick. These people are accused of things like looking for attention, faking it so they don’t have to work or even faking their illness so they can get certain drugs.
I’ve been on the receiving end of this myself. Having C-PTSD, some people think is a walk in the park. If only! Try to handle a flashback when you have to focus every ounce of strength on staying in reality versus getting lost in the flashback & I dare you to tell me it’s no big deal. Earlier this year, I’ve also been through getting a concussion when I passed out from carbon monoxide poisoning. Each day is now a gamble on how functional I can be, because both have done damage. But, since I look fine, & usually can hold a conversation fairly well, people assume I’m fine, or some will flat out insult me when my symptoms show up.
It can be so hard not to internalize people’s cruel, thoughtless words! All too often, I berate myself for being lazy when I don’t feel up to simple tasks or call myself stupid when I can’t remember things or can’t find the right words to express myself. Internalizing such things demoralizes you & makes you doubt the legitimacy of your symptoms. It can make you feel as if you’re crazy.
When I was 19, my mother threw me into a wall so hard, I had back pain for the next 10 years. No one believed me, except for one chiropractor & my ex husband then later my current husband. Everyone else said I was faking it, lazy, etc. It sank in. I doubted myself many times. Even in the midst of awful pain, I thought I was making it up so I didn’t have to work (the most common thing I heard). On good days when the pain wasn’t so bad, I was convinced I had to be lying & my back wasn’t so bad. It was a terrible feeling!
The fact is, with most injuries, diseases & disorders, you have good & bad days. Just because last Tuesday was a good day doesn’t mean you were lying about the other bad days! You simply had a good day!
Most people seem to lack empathy for those suffering from debilitating health problems. If you are one of them, STOP IT! How do you think you would feel if you had a serious problem & someone told you to get over it, stop faking it or even you don’t look sick? You wouldn’t tolerate it happily, so why should someone else?
If you are someone who has been on the receiving end of such ignorant, heartless statements, please remember that the person saying such nonsense has no idea what you live with each day. Ignore what they say. You know what you live with on a daily basis. You know your painful symptoms all too well. Ignore their words & believe what you see & feel, what you live with daily. Those things will show you that you are sick & that you aren’t lazy, faking, etc. While you take care of yourself, don’t forget to ask God to heal you. And, pray for the heartless person as well. Ask God to help them to have an empathetic, compassionate heart so they don’t continue to hurt you or other people.