January 12, 2018, I had a very strange experience. That was my father’s birthday, his first since he died the previous October. I was thinking about that when God told me that my father wanted Him to tell me something. He said, “Encourage the weak, like me.” I knew what that message meant immediately.
After my father died, God showed me a lot about him. He showed me how my father felt trapped in their marriage & unable to protect me. At the time of his death, upon meeting God, he also finally saw how wrong he had been to me. God showed me how weak my father felt he was. When God said to encourage the weak, I knew immediately He meant that I should encourage those who are in similar situations & also feel weak for it.
Every January on my father’s birthday, I write a blog post to do just this, to encourage those who also feel weak & in a relationship with a narcissist.
If you have been unable to end a relationship with a narcissist, I don’t think this makes you weak at all, although I certainly understand why you could feel that way. Fighting a narcissist is incredibly draining & makes you feel weak both mentally & physically.
Maybe the narcissist in your life has destroyed you financially & you are dependent on them. Sadly this is incredibly common. Narcissists excel at financial abuse. That doesn’t make you weak!
Maybe the narcissist has made you feel forced to maintain the relationship with them. Many make terrible threats if the victim says they want to leave. They threaten to keep them from their children or even kill their children. They threaten to kill their loved ones or pets. When this happens, how can you not stay out of fear the narcissist will follow through on such threats?! That doesn’t make you weak. It makes you someone who loves others & wants to protect them.
Narcissists also often make their victims feel obligated to them somehow. They may twist Scripture around to make you seem evil for considering ending the relationship with your parent or spouse. Or they may manipulate your good nature & make you pity them. My ex husband made me feel so guilty for breaking our engagement that I later married him, even though I was incredibly unhappy with him. Manipulation is what made me return to him & stay as long as I did. If that is your situation too, it’s manipulation, not weakness on your part!
Maybe the narcissist has destroyed your self-esteem so badly, you feel completely unable to make it without that person. Sadly, this happens! Feeling this way isn’t a sign of weakness at all. It’s a sign of a cruel person abusing you to put you in such a terrible state.
Maintaining a relationship with a narcissist is hard! It takes a great deal of strength to maintain your sanity & courage to continue on in this way.
If ending the relationship is your goal, that is brave! It also isn’t the easy fix many people seem to think it is. If you live with the narcissist, it takes time to prepare financially, to arrange for a new place to live, & more. Whether or not you live with the narcissist, it also takes time to figure out the best way to end that relationship to minimize their rage as well as for you to summon the courage to follow through with your plans.
No, you aren’t weak for staying in the relationship with a narcissist. If you’re looking for solutions, that shows you are strong. Obviously you want to survive this situation & that courage of yours will pay off. You will get through this with your dignity & your sanity in tact!